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Toronto, Ontario, Canada

Saturday, December 22, 2012

I don't have time

To blog anymore but ill try. I work 2 jobs currently. One at second cup and one at the CN tower all day every weekday. More updates soon hopefully.

Thursday, November 8, 2012

Sorry again for the lack of updates. I applied for a second job at a couple places but I have an actual interview next Tuesday at the second cup right outside my first job. I got the interview without the store owner even seeing my resume so I have a good feeling about all of this. I also got employee of the moth for October and this weekend my boyfriend and I are celebrating our 6 months anniversary which is a big deal...for me. Cause as we know I haven't had a healthy relationship in 4 years so whoopieeee for me. Few pics before I go from the last few weeks

Been working out again also

Friday, October 19, 2012

Today I worked my last stupid shift of the week and successfully cooked chicken breast for the first time WITHOUT giving myself food poisoning. I want to learn how to cook more things, especially meat.

I gave away my shift tomorrow so I could catch an early flight to see my baby in Thunder Bay. Excited!

Thursday, October 18, 2012

Today I went to lunch with my nono. he said he wants me to get married before he dies which made me sad cause I don't have many marriage plans in my future. He bought me groceries from an Italian grocery store...who knew those existed right? I came home, cleaned out my rats cage and cleaned the house. I cleaned behind the stove and fridge which my landlords left disgusting dust and food and magnets behind so that was fun. I mainly went on a cleaning spree to get rid of the ants in my house. When my roommates came home the ants returned because someone was careless and left food on the floor. I ONLY SPENT ALL DAY CLEANING TO RID MY LIFE OF ANTS NO BIG DEAL. Anyways after that I worked out. I never feel thin enough even though I have lost a pretty decent amount of weight in the past 2 years. I think this is mainly because I rarely drink anymore and I also eat very little junk food. I have also cut down on how much I eat in general. This all makes me sound like I have an eating disorder but oh well. March 2010

August 2012  
NEVER AGAIN will I look like I did in picture 1

Wednesday, October 17, 2012


Mega update so right before I went to visit my boyfriend for thanksgiving 2 weeks ago I discovered I had a minor corneal ulcer on my eye and had to go to the hospital. This resulted me having to wear my glasses that I hate for 6 days plus eye drops every half hour.

but I ended up having a good thanksgiving with my boyfriend and then family. I'm glad Kyle didn't have to spend the entire weekend alone.
The week following I worked the entire week which is boring and stupid. This past weekend I went shopping with my roommate in Chinatown and Kensington market and bought stuff like this:
Then I went to a Halloween party and I dressed up as hello kitty
Other MISC pictures of me from the past 2 weeks like you care
I'll try to update more often bye

Thursday, October 11, 2012

It's weird knowing that the person you're with now wasn't always yours and they've done the same stuff with you as they've done with other people. They've fucked other people, laughed with other people, joked, cried and shared lasting memories. You just wish you were the only person they had ever done those things with and continue to be the only person. These thoughts make me want to vomit. The thought of you with someone else in the past makes me sick.

Thursday, October 4, 2012

According to my blogger stats a lot of people from Russia have been reading my blog. So hi from me in Canada to you in Russia <3 If those stats are even true....

Today during my work meeting I won the monthly challenge of basically "who's the best employee" and won a pink ipod shuffle. I'm not sure if I'm going to keep it or sell it yet cause it's so cute and I won it and I'm proud cause I never win anything. I also won one of the 7 special awards and I got the excellent customer service award which will look good on my resume. Along with that I got some bath and shower jell and a bag of Halloween treats. I finally decided to take a job seriously and it paid off. YAY. If you were wondering this is what my work looked like today but i did my best to work hard even though there weren't many customers. I'm flying out to see my boyfriend on Friday night for thanksgiving and tomorrow I'm working another 10 hour shift.

Tuesday, October 2, 2012

So I'm done my exhausting 11 hour shift.
Tomorrow I have a normal shift then my work is having a thanksgiving dinner/meeting that I'm attending and I'm eating ALL THE FOOD.
My boyfriend isn't going to make it out to see me this weekend but I'm going to visit him for about a day and a half because if I don't I wont get to see him for the next 3 weeks and I can't do that cause I'm weak and I love him too much. Hahaha
Anyways we are having our own little thanksgiving since he doesn't get to have one otherwise.
It's gonna be damn cute.
Excited to eat 10000 calories tomorrow then burn it off.

I said I'd try to write a blog every day so here goes:
Tomorrow I'm working a double shift so 12 hours because living on your own and paying rent is tough and shit like that.
That's one thing I hate about living on my own for sure.
My boyfriend hasn't gotten back to me on whether he can come visit this weekend cause he needs his parents to pay for the plane ride which I set up at a discount.
So that is frustrating me and so is the fact that I can't see him whenever I want.
I wish I could find a new boyfriend that lives close to me but the problem is that boy wont be Kyle.
So suck for me.
I'm ignoring him right now cause he is being a loser + so am I and I'm mad that I have to work 2 double shifts this week to be able to afford where I live.

Monday, October 1, 2012


sorry for never posting I promise I'll post a blog every night from now on.
so i stayed in this stupid house that is kinda nice too bad the landlord is a dickhole
ahh been to thunder bay 3 times since i last wrote to see my lovely boyfriend and I work every day.
All my friends from work are quitting which makes me sad so that's it I'll update more tomorrow as it is late and it's October now officially.
i hate the cold

Friday, September 7, 2012


i miss my boyfriend i get to see him tomorrow after no contact for 2 weeks and not seeing him for 3
and moving out of the place ive been living in for a week cause the landlord is a fucking creep, rude piece of shit so byeeee
moving back home and finding a 1 bedroom apartment where ill have room for allllllllllllll my stuff fuck everyone fuck roommates all i need is my family.
you all suck

Tuesday, August 28, 2012

I miss my baby
so fucking much
I miss his voice and his nose and his stupid hat that I hate that he wears especially when I say it's ugly.
I hope he is thinking about me as much as I'm thinking about him.
I can't believe I have to do this for another 12 days.
The fact that I can't contact him is driving me insane.
I miss the goodnight and good morning texts.

Monday, August 13, 2012


what have I been up to
last weekend I went to VELD music festival in downsview park in Toronto and it was amazing.
Easily the best time I've had all summer.
It rained during the Deadmau5 which was so beautiful and I am at  a loss for words at the feelings I felt during the weekend.
Just indescribable.
Amazing music, dancing, weather.
I never really was into house/electronic music before the concert but I think I've grown a new appreciation and it is definitely growing on me.
I got to get up on my boyfriends shoulders for levels by Avicii at the front of the crowd which was my favorite moment of the weekend.
Here are some pictures of what I wore and junk

   A few songs I really liked
  Avicii levels at VELD

I wasted the summer working in Toronto and hanging out with my boyfriend. Not that, that is a bad thing but I barely got to see any of my friends but thems the breaks if you wanna make mad cash and be in love. I finally found a place to live but the rent is expensive but it has a rooftop patio which I approve of severely. At the end of the week I get to drive with my boyfriend 14 hours to thunder bay then leave him for 3 weeks which makes me want to cry. I've never been in a long distance relationship before but I can fly to thunder bay for free whenever I want because my mommy works for the airline. Anyways I love him and I'm going to miss him and his cute nose and body and ugggg fuck.

Monday, July 30, 2012

I havent posted in so long

Wow sorry about that. So my life has been busy. Still trying to find somewhere to live in Toronto. I want to live on Eglinton but I guess that is too much to ask. My boyfriend is moving back to thunder bay soon and I want to cry. SO anyways this weeks plans:
Tuesday: sit on my bum all day and do nothing
Wednesday: work
Thursday: work, my managers going away party
Friday: work, Paul's birthday party
Saturday: veld music festival at downsview park with my cute boyfriend
Sunday: same as Saturday
So This is basically what I've been up to :