welp

my wallet is missing after i took two steps out the door last night. bye 60 dollars, sin card, health card, mcodnalds card, debit card.

plus everyone sucks. can’t wait to lock myself in my room and cry when i get home from work. yaya omg wfdogona be so fdun dudndudnf come join jk dont fuck fgnsffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffff

I want to go to Egypt more than anywhere in the world. Someone come with me and we go 2 see da pyramids ♥

Getting

hand me down clothes from my 60 year old aunts is my favorite cause I can rock their old clothes better than they ever could.

Once again

I’m stuck in the middle of this poisonous relationship between a friend and a former friend.

Unfortunately it has gotten to the point where I can’t hangout with my friend if his boyfriend is there and obviously I don’t expect him to choose me over his boyfriend but it hurts because I thought we were going to end up having a strong friendship. I guess not.

It just sucks that I have to hear about how much my friend doesn’t want to be with his boyfriend but under the circumstances he feels like he has to stay with him.

I’m done hearing about it then watching him go back to him. It’s extremely hard to watch him go back to an abusive relationship but I tried to help and it’s only making things worse.

It sucks when the only person you think you could ever allow yourself to be with is the person that you can never be with.

going through

my mobile uploads on facebook and deleting every fat, ugly picture of me I ever thought was a good idea to upload in the past 3 years.

I HATE how I looked. I feel like a brand new person because I feel more comfortable with my body and my weight and shape.

Looking at those pictures gives me SO MUCH motivation to lose weight it's not even funny.

On that note, running tomorrow and Sunday, NO EXCEPTIONS.

2 year anniversary at Carrier Drive Mcdonalds and 3 and a half years at Mcdonalds in general. I rule @ life.

I'm the cutest lil Mcdongdong employee and also a lifer. JUST LOOK AT THAT HAT. WORKIN IT.

So update (I hate everything basically)

I started school again. I hate it. It took me a million years to get my class schedule in order. I need to do well cause this is my last semester of classes.
I started work again. I hate it. Mcdonalds just ain't what it used to be. JK it always sucked.
I have 2 new roommates. I never see them which makes me happy. They also don't use the fridge or cupboards so it's basically like they don't live here which makes my heart sing.
I miss Matt especially because I didn't get to see him that much this summer.
It also sucks that David and I can't see each other like once a week anymore which makes me sad because we spent so much time together this summer :( le wah.
What else ummmm me and Scott aren't friends anymore because he is psycho and threw beer in my face and basically should be put in a mental institution for reasons I cannot disclose over the internet.
Other than that life is mediocre. I hate fall. I hate winter. I only like summer. FOREVER AND EVER. The cold weather this September really blows. A lot this September has really blown but I guess I'm going to have to make the best of the last days of this month and I'm basically just rambling now I should go do my homework ug i have to get up at 8 tomorrow oops I forgot how to use periods lol periods bye

This is

basically my favorite song in the entire world. UGG SO GOOD.

nonononononononononononono.

Not allowed to feel that way.

I wish

summer was forever and I’d just work 40 hours at mcdonalds a week then come home and do nothing and not worry about graduating. ENDLESS SUMMER.

I couldn't

even enjoy my night tonight because everything went wrong. My stomach started acting up again and every time I smelled something pungent or moved my stomach would hurt.

I got stuck outside at the smoking area of the bar for 20 min which made me want to gag because the smell of smoke was so strong.

I can't even drink with my friends right now because the thought of drinking or eating makes me nauseous. So I'm laying in bed trying to figure out why I feel like absolute crap.

I HATE EVERYTHING.

I did nothing on my to do list from yesterday except go to class because for some odd reason my stomach is in pain. I can barely move so I’m snuggled in my bed for the rest of the day.

4-6pm - sleep

6pm - get ready

7-9pm - drink

9pm - LIL JON YEAH

I tie my hands up to a chair so I don't fall that way.

So tomorrow is

labor day and my work gave me the option to do last minute training either at 1pm or 10 am. Since I had plans I said no and now I can't work till I get trained.

But JKLOL my plans got cancelled thus proving I should never put friends over work.

BYE.

Plan for today

• get out of bed
• go downstairs
• eat a hotdog with unnecessary amounts of mustard on it
• clean my room
• clean my rat's cage
• get ready to party
• party
• chase grey goose with water

Here comes neutral Helga

Just going to be neutral from now on. PLUS I'm going to try to hide my feelings better...in general.

Things are looking up.

Unfortunately

I don't think I can be friends with 2 people because they are in a shitty relationship and I can't stand to watch as they both obsess over each other then treat one another like shit.

If I do I will just want to get involved and I WILL NOT put myself in the middle of such a messed up situation.