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Toronto, Ontario, Canada

Wednesday, November 30, 2011

Looking at my blog posts from years ago around this time
2008: I was sad as fuck cause i was fucked over by the first guy I really liked in university
2009: sad cause I got fucked over by another guy
2010: sad cause people posted a mean video of me on the internet
2011: happy cause I'm fucking above all that shit and I'm awesome

Bye :)


1. What does the newest text message in your inbox say?
pink ones coming

2. What was the last song you sang out loud?
something by foster the people

3. Do you have any nicknames?
helgs, helgi

4. What time did you go to bed last night?

5. Are you currently happy?

6. When was the last time you cried?
all dah time

7. Who did you last talk on the phone with?
my mom

8. Do you have a crush on anyone?

9. Have you ever done cocaine?

10. What is the color of your room?

11. Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollars?
ye best hope i dont hate you

12. Have you ever thought someone died, when they really didn’t?
lol what? no

13. Who was the last person you saw in person?
uh some ppl i work with

14. Last time you smiled?

15. Ever had a drunken night in Mexico?
i wish, going on the to do list

16. Have you changed this year?

17. What are you listening to right now?
hype machine

18. Are you talking to anyone while doing this?
no forever alone

19. Is there a quote you live by?
it is what is is loooooooooooooooooooooooool

20. Do you want someone you can’t have?
i usually do but not right now

21. Do you and your boyfriend fight a lot?
me and matt fight a lot and it's like we are dating but he's gay

22. Have your parents ever told you that you couldn’t hang out with a certain someone?
when i was little

23. What were you doing at 10AM?
le sleepz

24. Would you have sex with someone you had known less than twenty-four hours?
i have....

25. Would you ever take someone back if they cheated on you?

26. Have you seen the movie Thirteen?
a lot of times

27. Did you kiss or hug anyone today?

28. Has anyone told you a secret lately that you aren’t allowed to tell anyone?
umm yes shhh

29. This time last year, can you remember who you liked?
uhh yeah

30. Do you have feelings for anyone?
idk yet

31. Have you ever ridden a horse?
when i was a wee tot

32. What will you be doing in 3 hours?
le sleepz

33. Does anyone call you babe/baby?
matt and chantel calls me baby girl

34. Are you a patient person?
when it comes to things i really want

35. Are you ticklish?

36. Are you upset about anything?

37. What should you be doing instead of filling this out?
not sure

38. Who was the last person to send you a text message?

39. Has anyone seen you in your underwear this past month?

40. Are you an emotional person?

41. Do you like to wear dresses?

42. What are you wearing right now?

43. Do you think someone is falling in love with you?
everyone in the world pretty much

44. So, you have brown eyes?
ewwwwwww thank god no

45. Do you have any dirty pictures on your cellphone or computer?

46. How old will you turn in 2012?

47. Are your toe nails painted pink?

48. What were your first thoughts this morning?
is it 7 am? no jk its 11

49. Would you ever get a tattoo?

50. Where is your biological mother right now?
in georgetown

51. Who was the last person you watched a movie with?
chantel, matt, alex

52. Day been rough?
nah well maybe a little

53. How old will you be in 9 months?

54. Are you doing anything tomorrow?

55. Did the last person you kissed have a tattoo?

56. If your ex said they hated you, what would you say?

57. Who was the last person to call you?
my mum

58. Do you say ‘panties’ or ‘underwear’?

59.What color bra do you currently have on?

60.Have you ever gotten to the center of a Tootsie Pop without biting?

61.Have you ever hit an animal with your car?
my non existent car with my non existent licence

62.Have you ever been used as a ‘rebound’? How did it go?
idk and idk

63.The last person you kissed treat you right?
when i see hm I GUESS he does

64.Would you be shocked if the last person you had feelings for texted you?

65.Is this upcoming year going to be a good one for you?

66.What if you had a baby with the last person you texted?
it would be cute lil thang

67.Do any of your friends dislike each other?
not really

68.Who knows your biggest secrets?
my bed ;)

69.Do you care if people hate you for no reason?

70.Are you in a good mood?

71.Do you think ex’s can remain friends?
if you want to, whatever

72.Were you single on your last birthday?
always am

73.Does it bother you when people respond with one word texts?

74.Did you have braces?
eew no

75.Have you ever ran away from your own parents?
lol bye

76.Are you afraid of clowns?
when i was lil i was

77.Is there someone you are dying to see?

78.Do you have any hickeys on you?

79.You just won $100,000, what’s the first thing you would buy?
food im hunnnngry

80.Are you currently looking forward to anything?
xmas break

81.Is there anyone you wish you could fix things with?

82.Is love worth fighting for?
what's love

83.Is there anyone you wish you could be spending time with right now?
there always is

84.Will this friday be a good one?

85.Could you picture yourself getting married and having kids?

86.What is your current mood?

87.Did the last person you kissed name start with a J, C, B, K, I, N, R, S, Q, L or A?
s ;)

88.Who last poked you on facebook?.
your mom

89.Ever been told “it’s not you, it’s me”?
not in those words

90.Do you like to take walks?
idk i like walking it's cool n stuff

91.Were you happy when you woke up today?
i guess

92.Do you crack your knuckles?

93.Will tomorrow be better than today?
eh prb the same

94.What were you doing at 4am?
le sleepz

95.Ever liked someone who treated you badly?
couple times

96.If something was wrong who would you go to first?

97.Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months or more?
with a person i was crazy for, for sure

98.When will your next kiss be?
um at this rate, new years

99.Honestly, have you ever kissed anyone with a name that starts with J?

100.Is there anything you’re looking forward to within the next month?
a lot lot loooooot of things

101.What did you do last night?
internet, it was sexy

102.How often do you honestly say “I wanna die”
a lot

103.Do you ever wish you could just go to sleep & never wake up?
sometimes but like maybe wake up in a couple weeks

104.Would you go in public looking like you do right now?
ogmmgmgmgm no

105.Is anyone over protective of you?
idk no one has ever really shown it other than my family

106.What color is your iPod?
blue. i loove how this assumes everyone has an i pod

107.What color is your toothbrush?
invisible i lost it but it's funny cause im not joking

108.Are you afraid of losing the last person you tallked to?
no cause i work with them i dont care

109.Is there someone who meant a lot to you at one point, and isn’t around now?
of course

110.What do you do when you’re having a bad day?

111.Do you always answer your phone?
most likely ye

112.Are you anything like you were at this point last year?

113.Do you have an attitude?

114.What smiley face do you use often?

115.Was your last text message from a boy or girl?

116.Is it okay to like someone else when you have a boyfriend/ girlfriend?
not rly

How do I get you to feel what I feel for you?

Sunday, November 27, 2011

Let's get drunk and you can tell me all the things I want to hear then we can fuck then I'll leave and ignore you then come back and we can do it all over again.

Thursday, November 24, 2011

I look tired. Hope everyone thinks I looks super cute with these huge bags under my eyes and my long hair down to the bottom of my back with hella cool split ends.
I'm so attractive d8 me.

Wednesday, November 23, 2011

Fuck around

Tomorrow I get to go to the house of a boy I hooked up with, try not to be awkward and pretend I don't want it to happen again.
On the bright side I get to accompany Chantel on her first plane ride in 5 years and see my best friend and drink for the first time in two weeks and be happy drunk for the first time in a month.

Please let me be happy this weekend. Please.

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Monday, November 21, 2011

Up against your will.
Through the thick and thin.
He will wait until.
You give yourself to him.

cantsleep cantsleel must sleep then ge tup ina few hours and finsish homeowrk
need soemthing to make me sleep at normal time bye

Things I want to do over christmas break

Fill out applications for summer internships
Watch that 7 hour long documentary with David
Work full time
Go to MTV live again
Go sledding/Skiing
Throw a New years party for Chantel's birthday
I feel like I had more plans :(
someone add to my list.

Sunday, November 20, 2011

Baby would you like to spend the night the whole night and maybe if you play it right you can be all mine

and shoes

more wishlist cause i procrastinate on homework


1. What was the highlight of your week?


2. Whose car were you in last?

chantel's dads

3. When is the next time you will kiss someone?

hopefully next weekend
it would be much appreciated

4. What color shirt are you wearing?

hot pink

5. How long is your hair?

really damn long

6. Are you good looking?

yeah i'm pretty cute

7. Last movie you watched?

puss in boots

8. Who were you with?

david and austin

9. Last thing you ate?

special k bar

10. Last thing you drank?


11. When was the last time you had your heart broken?

all the frickin tme

12. Who came over last?

my hunger

13. Are you happy right now?


14. What did you say last?


15. Where is your phone?

on my bed next to me

16. What color are your eyes?


17. Are you left-handed?


18. Spell your name without vowels:

hlg <3

19. Do you have any pets?


20. Favorite Vacation?

anywhere but here

21. What do you dislike currently?

im hungry

22. What are you listening to?


23. If you could have one thing right now what would it be?

24. What is your favorite scent?


25. Who makes you happiest?

my mom, matt, chantel, david

26. What were you doing at midnight last night?

more like who was i doing
jk i was doing homework

27. When is your birthday?

apr 10

28. Who has the same phone as you?

anyone that has a blackberry

29. Last time you went swimming in a pool?

uh does a bathtub count?

30. Do you read your horoscope?

so much bullllllllllllllll

31. Where was the last place you bought something?

your moms vag
everything was on sale

32. How do you feel about your hair right now?

pretty dec considering im in bed

33. Do you bite your nails?


34. Do you have any expensive jewelery?


36. Myspace or facebook?

is dis fa rreal ?

37. How fast have you driven a car?

0 miles per hour :')

38. Have you ever smoked?


39. What was or is your favorite subject in school?


40. Do you have Verizon?

say wha

41. What type of boy or girl do you usually fall for?

ones that are really tall and or skinny and have big noses but mostly fucking losers

42. Do you have any hidden talents?

being a bitch

43. Favorite Song?

my neck my back

44. Do you like to sing at all?


45. Dream Job?


46. Where does most of your family live?


47. Are you an only child or do you have siblings?

many a brothers

48. Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?


49. What was the first thing you thought when you woke up?

it's 1 pm im lazy

50. Do you drink?

sometimes booze been treating me wrong now adays

51. Know any other languages?

ital a lil bit

52. Ever write a coded message?


53. Have you ever been IN a wedding?

yes and i will continue to be in weddings cause im da shit

54. Do you have any children?

under my bed

55. Did you take a nap today?

might as well have i slept till 1

56. Who has the same birthday as you?

idk lol

57. Ever met anyone famous before?

michael camillari or whatever cause im related to him lolz

58. Do you want to be famous one day?

if i feel like it then

59. Any Pet Peeves?

mcdoanlds customers

60. Are you multitasking right now?

nah b

61. Do you like Britney Spears?

hit me baby 1 more yes

62. What is your least favorite chore?


63. Last place you drove your car?

dont drive

64. Ever been out of the country?

all the time

65. Where were you born?

toronto representtttt

66. Could you handle being in the military?

yes id get all da bitches

67. What is your average cell phone bill?

idk my mommy pays it

68. Who are you thinking about right now?

myself and how cute i am awwwww

69. When was the last time you laughed REALLY hard?

idk lul

70. How many pairs of shoes do you own?

let me get up n count jk no

71. Are your toes always painted?

i hate toes

72. How many piercings do you have?

idk like 4

73. What are you doing today?

nothing today is over

74. Have you ever been gambling?
once and on neopets

75. When is the last time you updated your page?

wat page? fcbk? idk sometimes often maybe

76. Do you like rollercoasters?

dey fun

77. Have you ever been to disneyland or world?

YES <33333333333333333333333333

78. Do you have a favorite cartoon character?

anything pokemon

79. Last thing you cooked?


80. How’s the weather?

warm for nov

81. Do you e-mail?

for school, yes.

82. What’s the stupidest thing you ever did with your cell phone?

left it out in the rain

83. Last time you were sick?

i dont get sick

84. What states have you lived in?

united states of whatever

85. Do you wish you could move?

yes bye

86. Do you take all the QuizPox.com quizzes?

quizpox awe yeah

87. What is your dream car?


88. Have you ever wanted someone you cant have?

all the time hahahah can i haz u?

89. If you could be anywhere right now where would it be?

in yo arms <3
but actually

90. Are you happy with your life?


It's going to be so much easier to lose weight when I've cut down on my drinking. Yay! I think I'm doing a pretty good job of not drinking too. In the past 4 weekends I've only drank during 2 of them.
I love you alcohol but I just don't like what you do to my mind and body sometimes. We have to take a break.
Being clear minded and not slutty because of no alcohol feels so good. ^_^

Saturday, November 19, 2011

I swear, I get attached to new shows faster than I get attached to new boys. Anyways currently trying to watch How I Met Your Mother because I'm all caught up on all but the most recent 2 episode, Misfits which I've been waiting a year to come back with a new season and American Horror Story which I only started watching yesterday and I'm on episode 6. Weee I'm a TV show slut and I can stay committed to 3 shows at a time.
Can't wait for the new season of Shameless US and Skins in January.

Thursday, November 17, 2011

I went to the doctor and nothing is wrong with me. Yay for that. Not so much yay for all the homework I need to do.
I'm staying in this weekend to work and do homework what a life !
Uhh next weekend I'm going to Ottawa with Chantel and it's her first time flying in 5 years. At least I don't have to wait in the airport alone again.
I don't want to get my hopes up that things are going to happen again with me and cute boy when I get there so I'm just going to avoid the whole matter.
Too much homework and I just want to work out but I can't cause I pant too hard so I have to wait until everyone is out of the living room to work out on the elliptical. My panting is distracting lol sorry I work out hard whaaaaaaaaaaahhhhh.

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

More wishlist

Taking pictures of myself

while I’m exhausted before my 9 am class is my life. TUESDAY PHOTO SHOOT BEFORE 10 AM YALL IN 4 A TREAT. JK

Sometimes I think I was born backwards... you know, come out of my mum the wrong way. I hear words go past me backwards. The people I should love, I hate, and the people I hate...


  • Wake up
  • Get large coffee
  • Go to class
  • Come home for a little
  • Go to Mcdonalds and book of the 26th and tell them I can't come to work Wednesday cause my doctor wants me to come in for a follow up appointment cause I prob. have some deadly disease weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
  • Come home again
  • Eat lunch
  • Do laundry
  • Clean out rat cage
  • Work out (optional)
  • Shower (optional)
  • Get ready to go downtown
  • Go downtown
  • Buy essentials (makeup etc)
  • Go see puss in boots again with David
  • Die eventually cause I likely have cancer

Thursday, November 10, 2011

Baby please don't go

ahahah FUCK having anything slightly resembling a crush on someone that live 6 hours away. I'm getting fucked up this weekend, going to the bar, dirty dancing till my legs hurt and making out with every attractive person I see.

A survey I posted 4 years ago

Let's see how my answers differ

Ever wonder if you're some one's everything?
Then: no
Now: no cause I know I'm not

Last song played more then three times?
Then: ditch that
Now: babylon

Last person to fall asleep with?
Then: my boyfriend
Now: chantel. lol i had a boyfriend loooooooooool

Have you ever been tied to someone?
Now: still no

Last fast food consumed?
Then: melon
Now: The top part of a fudge sundae

When do you want to die?
Now: never

Then: no
Now: to david we r having 3 kidz :''')

Did you take a nap today?
Then: no
Now: Yeah I woke up, did homework and went back to sleep

Last car you were in?
Then: My mommy's
Now: chantel's

Last person to call you beautiful?
Then: idk
Now: drunk guys coming through drive thru

What colour is your room?
Then: green
Now: purple

Where's your family?
Then: Toronto
Now: georgetown and toronto

Could you use some sleep right now?
Then: sure
Now: i'd rather stay up on the internet and reminisce

Who'd you have lunch with?
Then: no one because it's 11 am
Now: myself

Remember the first time you kissed the last person you kissed?
Then: yeah...
Now: yeah and it was the only time

Do you like to cuddle?
Then: yes
Now: with the right person

Have you ever made out against a car?
Then: no
Now: yes last halloween

Have you ever kissed someone you weren't dating?
Then: yea
Now: hellll yeah

Kissed someone that had a girlfriend/boyfriend?
Then: nope
Now: not to my knowledge

Is the last person you kissed older than you?
Then: nope
Now: I don't know

Did anyone see you kiss the last person you kissed?
Then: nope
Now: yes

Last time you had butterflies in your stomach?
Then: none of your business
Now: when i was in ottawa

Would you ever shave your head to save someone you love?
Then: why would i ever have to do that?
Now: i love my hair more than anyone so

Whats on your bedroom floor?
Then: all my bags full of cloths
Now: everything in my room.... every fucking thing

Whens the next time you will kiss somebody?
Then: probably not for awhile because i wont get to see Matt for like a week or 2
Now: this weekend and it will prob be matt. ironic? i think yes.

How many piercings do you have?
Then: 3
Now: 4

Ever kissed in the rain?
Then: yeah
Now: still yeah but i wanna do it again so laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaame

How's your heart lately?
Then: it's been better
Now: perfect. i don't need anyone but me, friends and family.

Any plans for tomorrow?
Then: school, moving into my room finally
Now: getting drunk as fuck and seeing matt

Do you wear the hood on your hoodie?
Then: when it rains
Now: pffft i don't own hoddies

If your best friend liked your ex, what would you do?
Then: laugh
Now: welp he's gay so have fun

Have you held hands with anybody in the past week?
Then: yeahh
Noe: no cigar

Do you like the last person you kissed?
Then: i hate them so much. joking Matt g
Now: NO he was the biggest douche

Where is the person you have feelings for right now?
Then: at school
Now: nowhere

Do you bump into someone’s arm if you want to hold their hand?
Then: no
Now: no i bump into their face

Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?
Then: no
Now: get married and have 3 kids

Who was the last guy you talked to?
Then: James prob
Now: work ppl

Has a boy put their arm around you in the past 5 days?
Then: yeah
Now: forever alone

When is the last time you were in a photo-booth taking pictures with friend?
Then: omg like grade 8
Now: last year with my lil bro

Do you think you have made a difference in any one's life?
Then: i hope so
Now: idgaf

What's the last thing you laughed at?
Then: idk
Now: tumblr

Do you get the recommended eight hours of sleep a night?
Then: never
Now: most of the time

What is the best thing to do in the morning to wake up?
Then: get dressed and such
Now: surf the web

Who is normally awake in the mornings with you?
Then: my cat
Now: my roomies

Do you eat breakfast?
Then: not usually
Now: does coffee count? if not, no.

Do you like the morning or night better?
Then: nights ;)
Now: nights minus the wink face

If you had a choice, would you just sleep in everyday?
Then: yep
Now: I already do

Do you like school?
Then: not currently
Now: it's alright

what do you like to wake up to?
then: a boy :)
Now: internet

what school you go to?
Then: Guelph humber
Now: still guelph humber. is.it.over.yet?

Do you have a computer?
Then: no...i need ma laptop soon :(
Now: hahahaha i didn't have a laptop 4 years ago...how did i live omg

How many times a day do you eat?
Then: idk it varies
Now: two

Would you rather be at home or outside with friends?
Then: both
Now: in my room on the internet

One thing that people might not know about you?
Then: my favorite animal is a pig
i like to have extra sauce on everything i eat.
Now: i work out 2 times a week every week. i live on my bed on the internet.

Name a quote from the song you're listening to.
Then: n/a
Now: dancing with the dj dj dj dancing with the dj

What are you seriously wearing?
Then: omg srsly I'm wearing my black and white checkered shirt, black leggings, acorn necklace, my fuzzy moccasin boots, silver headband.
Now: big ass pink shirt and shorts

On your "lazy days" what would you be doing?
Then: obv nothing.
Now: internet

Of all your friends, who would you want to be stuck in a well with?
Then: Katie...because pat would want to redecorate
wells scare the shit out of my though
Now: my laptop

Most recent movie you have watched in theatres?
Then: saw five
Now: puss in boots

Do you eat cookie dough?
then: if i had access to some I sure would
Now: if i had access to some im sure i wouldnt cause im not a fat bitch like i was 4 years ago

What color are your bedsheets?
then: yellow
now: green

Had a long distance relationship?
Then: kinda have one now
Now: LOL at me thinking toronto to barrie was long distance. NO

Are you a patient person?
then: no
now: yes

Who's your favorite singers/band?
Then: brand new
Now: s4lem

What are you doing tomorrow?
then: sleeping, class, going out to dinner with chantel and Kaitlyn
Now: class, presentation, clean room, drunk.as.fuck

Can you honestly say you're happy with who you are?
then: no
now: ye im fuckin awesome

Is it cute when a boy calls you babe?
then: YES
now: call me baby girl

Will you keep your last name when you get married?
Then: yes
napolitano is the shiiit
it sounds like ice cream
now: like ice cream like ice cream

Would you rather be drunk or high?
then: drunk :)
now: right now i'd rather me hiiiiigh

Have you ever been knocked unconscious?
then: no
now: by alcohol .alchy u so meeeaaan

Would you survive in prison?
then: bahhaaaa no
now: ye i'd get so many bitches

Whats the last thing you ate & why?
Then: McDonald's because i was on break thurrrr
Now: oh same. mcbitch fo life

Are you a friendly person?
then: yes :)
now: no :)

Have you kissed anyone with a name that starts with a "C"?
Then: hmmmm nope
now: yes

What's the worst thing someone can do to you?
Then: betray my trust
now: call me fat or ugly

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

Dates I am very much looking forward to

November 10 - Matt’s birthday weekend (2 days!)

November 26 - Cavalcade of Lights with David (18 days)

December 10 - Christmas break starts (32 days)

December 31 - Chantel’s birthday party (53 days)

January 13 - Going to Ottawa (66 days)

January 21 - Mommy’s wedding (74 days)

Sunday, November 6, 2011

My progress

over the last 2 years of working out and junk. I don't weigh myself so all I have to go on are pictures. Anyways I'm pretty proud of myself for working hard so that I can look good and feel good.
Also I'm opening up the comments again, not that anyone reads this anymore.

just worked

13 hours straight….it….was….beautiful. especially cause it’s daylight savings time and i had to work 1am twice. TWICE.

Friday, November 4, 2011

Getting fucked over by guys since 2008. 4 years and going strong. I guess there is nothing wrong with them after all, something is wrong with me. Wonder what?


Wanted to get this dress to wear to my moms wedding but you can't wear white to a wedding. It's rude. I liked this dress so much.

Thursday, November 3, 2011

my my my my ymymymy YMYM

1: Are you a virgin? holla at that being a no
2: What do you want to major in? media studies in photography
3: What’s your sexual orientation? straight as an arrow
4: Are you crushing on anyone? wishin i wasn't. crushes are pointless
5: What’s the cutest thing someone’s ever done for you? played "i just has sex" right after we had sex. lol jk lol
6: What are the top five places you wish you could go before you die? egypt, russia, iceland, prague, japan
7: What was the scariest moment of your life? getting mugged
8: If you could take something back that you said or did, what would it be? idk i do a lot of dumb shit but no regrets i guess cause it made me the person i am
9: Do you think that the person who sent you this number was cute? everyone is cute
10: If you had to name three important details about you, what would you say? i'm shy, funny/sarcastic as hell and i think i'm the most hilarious person in the world, i can hold a conversation very well. idk there's not much to me i guess
11: Are you allergic to anything? If so, what? pineapple
12: Have you ever been in love? If so, are you still in love? yes and no
13: Do you like sports? If so, which ones? no i only like running. end
14: What are four things you can’t live without and why? internet cause i love the internet, my bed cause it's comfy as hell, food cause it's beautiful and makes me cry when i eat it and the people i love cause then who would i love?
15: Do you have a facebook? If so, would you add the person who sent you this number? ok
16: What do you like to do in your spare time? run, work, lay in bed on the internet
17: What are your biggest fears? sharks, wells, bees, deep water
18: What are two of your biggest weaknesses? i'm shy and i'm lazy
19: What are your three biggest insecurities? that i'm fat, that i'm not attractive, that i'm stupid hence why i dont talk in class
20: If you could write anonymous letters to three people, who would you send it to and what would you say? hi ,hi, hi.

Tuesday, November 1, 2011