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Toronto, Ontario, Canada

Sunday, May 31, 2009

This weekend was actually really, really amazing.
Everything was just so good.
I bought a hamster this morning, the one I've been going to visit at the pet store for weeks now.
I named him Marlin, my mom is going to kill me.

Saturday, May 30, 2009

I want a bull terrier, they are awkward like my life.

shitty buzz

last night was retarded.
Matt got kicked out of the bar because he was too drunk, but before that the bar was really fucking fun.
Andrew drove Matt, Walid, Adam and I to Mcdonalds then to my house and now Adam is sleeping downstairs and it's too awkward for life because no one but Matt ever stays over at my house.
I have the whole house to myself again tonight.
Party up in here anyone, plz?
I legit going to be so bored tonight and I think I'm still drunk, I stopped drinking at 3 am.
Well cool I hope Adam wakes up soon, bye.

Thursday, May 28, 2009

oh hot damn, i'm one sexy gal

we got dicks like jesus

best night ever!
drank large vex coolers and danced in pat's car.
how lame are we?
that's why we're best friends.

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

eatin' crumpets BRB, fucker

I'm holy shit awkward, if that's even a proper sentence. I find almost every situation awkward even if it isn't the slightest bit.

I wish I actually worked in drive thru today but I got stuck on window, so much funnnnn.

I made my first double cheese burger in the kitchen too which made me pretty happy, how sad.

Work again tomorrow and I'm going in early because they asked me to then to the mall with Matt. Friday I'm going to the bar then Saturday to visit Kristyn in Oakville hopefully.

Monday, May 25, 2009

I cleaned my room today and actually made my bed, which is a big deal because I forgot what it looked like to be made.

yeah I do sleep with 6 pillows, I like pillows a lot I guess
new earrings, the ones I wanted foreveeer
and I look high in this picture, that's pretty awesome too

Work tomorrow in the good ol' drive thru, hopefully the shake machine isn't still leaking.

Sunday, May 24, 2009

This weekend:

-bar with amanda, matt and another amanda
-bringing my own booze in
-seeing kaitlin and friends there
-gin shots
-ew gin because it tastes like pine trees
-drunk cooking leftover Chinese food
-eating it on the bed
-worst sleep ever
-5 hour shift on fries
-snuck in to see night at the museum
-drank vex during it
-hated the movie
-got home and matt scared my cat, she hates him now
-in the morning he made a large candle drop on my foot
-played final fantasy 3 wayy too much
-and some tanning

that's what up.

oh hey look i still have puffy cheeks and like to eat my own hair...cooool

Saturday, May 23, 2009

every time i see someone who looks like you my heart jumps a little.

Thursday, May 21, 2009

Look at me puffy cheeks:

My cheeks went all puffy and now I look like a little chipmunk. How embarrassing for me when Matt comes over and sees me.

I want nothing more then to tan right now but the meds are making me dizzy and I just want to lie down and watch a movie. I can't really eat either because my mouth will only open so far and I don't want to get food stuck in the holes in my mouth, grosssss.

I watched No Country for Old men last night and it was nothing like I thought it would be, pretty decent movie though.

I picked up a shift on Saturday and hopefully I'll be well enough to work it.


Wednesday, May 20, 2009

So I'm up really early and the wisdom teeth surgery went pretty good. Them putting me to sleep was by far the scariest part though because they put a needle in my arm and then I felt dizzy and lightheaded at first then BAM, I was knocked the fuck out.

In other news I want the new Nikon D5000 for school instead of the D300 because it shoots video and it's a bit cheaper. It also has all of the same functions that I'm used to from the D90 and I'll get to explore a bit of film making too!

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Ok, so I'm trying to convince myself that getting my wisdom teeth out won't be too bad because I got my frowny pierced and that hurt like hell, I'm still alive. Same with my nose and web. But I'm so freaked out at the fact that there will be 4 holes in my mouth and I've been sitting here for hours reading people's stories of when they got their wisdom teeth out.

I'm also not looking forward to waking up after the surgery and feeling drunk and bleeding everywhere.


Can I die now?


Monday, May 18, 2009

I'm going to bed now

Sunday, May 17, 2009

I'm home from day 2 May 24 overnight with 1 more night to go.

I think I'm going to go shower and sleep this beautiful, sunny day away.
No one better wake me until 8 when the Gossip Girl season finale is on.

Matt Graham's text messages over the course of a few hours that I found hilarious:
Yesterday 12:27 PM "Time to wake up"
Yesterday 4:49 PM "Get the fuck up"
Yesterday 10:03 PM "IM DRUNNJK"
Yesterday 10:12 PM "Slut wake up" - I was at work by this time.

I'm glad that I have such a nice best friend that apparently doesn't like it when I sleep.

Saturday, May 16, 2009

So I'm pretty sure I'm going to die. Overnights are hell and I still have 2 more nights to go.
I get to be down in drive thru all by myself ALL night which sketches the fuck out of me because the machines down there always make random noises.

Kill me, please.

Friday, May 15, 2009

oh hey, some old pictures of me just for you.

why was i so lame?
for me and pat's english project in grade 10

Thursday, May 14, 2009

I got that new "I'm a single girl swag" but not really because I've been single for 6 months. A new record since grade 10 I might add :)

Why isn't anyone I know crush worthy? I miss having a crush.

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

UGG I just want to eat everything but I can't. I'm trying to eat in moderation so I don't know how well my shift at work tomorrow is going to go in regards to eating. Maybe I'll just eat apple slices on break.

I'm working for the next four days and then getting my wisdom teeth out...talk about the worst week ever.

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

no he said smoke AND mirrors !

Everything was going so shitty for me about a week ago but everything is so great now,'cept for a certain bi-sexual boy that despises me for no apparent reason. Cool shit, take your teen angst out on someone else, douchebag.

Anyways when you read that I wanted to have a falling out with you I didn't mean it. It's just that everything went to shit all at once and I just didn't know what to do with anyone anymore. No way I'm letting an 8 year friendship go that easily, I'm just not sure if you want to be friends anymore.

In other news today was so good, nice weather, went downtown and to the lake with one of my best friends.

I bought sims castaway, not that I needed another video game but it's not my fault I beat pokemon so fast.

One last thing SMOKINNNN' MIRRORS!!!!

Monday, May 11, 2009

I don't have anything to really blog about today.
Katie and I are hanging out tomorrow and exploring downtown so hopefully it's nice outside.

So here's a random Asian girl for your viewing pleasure...

Sunday, May 10, 2009

Last night was my last night of partying/drinking for awhile because next weekend -aka may 24- I have been scheduled to work overnights at work from Friday to Sunday. Oh the joy!

Then on the 19th I'm getting my wisdom teeth out. Partyyy right there.

Not looking forward to the next 2 weeks at all.

Someone come visit me after I get my wisdom teeth out because I don't want to die in pain alone.

Can't wait for puffy cheeks ftw.

Saturday, May 9, 2009

I kinda only want to see this because Ed Westwick and James Lafferty are in it...but I think I'll just download it because I'm too poor to rent or buy.

I was watching this show last night and on it they were asking college students how many people they've slept with in college and the numbers were ridiculously high, like someone said 12 people.

Seriously, I went to college and slept with zero people, actually in my whole life I've slept with zero people so.... what the fuck is wrong college kids today?

12 people, really? Cummon now.

Thursday, May 7, 2009

I found the alcohol that my brother stole from me after long and hard searching in his room.
Maybe things are finally starting to look up for me.

Good stuff keep on comin' my way !

If you give a fuck

They say life is hard but you never really believe it until you experience it.
Coming home never made me feel like so much of an outcast, like I don’t belong here anymore, but I don’t belong there either.
I just want to start somewhere new, where no one knows my face, but then again, running from my problems is the cowards way out.
And yes, maybe I am a coward. There are so many things I would like to say to people but I’m scared that this is the end for us and if that is how it’s going to be then I’d rather just have a falling out with no yelling, no screaming, no saying things that are going to make me hate you. Let the cards fall where they may. I’m not strong enough to tell you what I know and how you’ve hurt me.
I’ve had all I can really take from the people I know. I think it’s time to let everyone go, or just let myself go and start not caring about what people say or think.
But no matter where I end up I’m always going to be the same person and all the same problems are going to arise.
I can’t even begin to describe the feeling or betrayal, confusion and sadness I’m feeling right now. It hurts more then anything I’ve ever felt. When so many people are against you, what can you do?
What the fuck can you do but pretend it doesn’t bother you when it’s really all you think about?
I’m trapped here for the next 4 months with these people and I can either make the best of it or get the fuck out.
I’m trying so hard to build myself up and it’s just so easy for people to tear me right down. I don’t know what to do anymore, there’s just so much negativity coming at me all at once and I don’t think I did anything to deserve it. If there was something I did to deserve it I must be much worse of a person then I thought.
I can’t talk to anyone about all of this so I write it, you read it, you can judge it for all it’s worth, or not worth. I don’t expect anything less from anyone anymore.

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

Yeah, cause I'm ridiculous like that

I'd write about my day and how shitty it was but alas, I am too lazy.
Let's just say it's probably the worst day I've had so far in 2009 and a couple people had to be deleted off my facebook.

Something good happen please. NOW?

Tuesday, May 5, 2009


First time staying out all night.
Last time that we got away with lies.
I can hear it in the back of my mind
over and over again.
I wanna do it again.

Late nights and early lights.
Never thought it would come to a goodbye.
I replay it on the back of my mind
over and over again.
I wanna do it again.

Monday, May 4, 2009

this sums it all up

You might not always like me, the things I do or the way I do them. But these are my things, this is the way I do them and I am me.

Sunday, May 3, 2009

I love running, it's the only thing I look forward to anymore.

I think I'm going to take a break from facebook and drinking, but probably only the first one.
Going on the computer just pisses me off and I could do without social networking for awhile I suppose.

I'm just at a point where I need to move forward in my life but it seems that wherever I am, things just keep pulling me down to a point where I just stay in the same place and worry too much about maintaining things.

I can't express myself fully in my blogs anymore because I'm afraid of who might read them. I don't want to make my blog private but I shouldn't be scared to write my feeling either.

Maybe I should grow some balls and just tell people what I think instead of blogging about it.

But regardless, I never really forget when people say or do things that hurt me, nor do I tell them. It's just I stop letting them bother me.

Do you want to know, know that it doesn't hurt me.

Friday, May 1, 2009

Life's a climb, but the view is great. HAHAHA hoora for cliche quotes

Nothing like sneaking into The Hannah Montana movie and drinking a few coolers while watching it with your best friend.
Today was so good :D

"She get's the best of both worlds, oh waiit...that's me"
best text evvverrr sent to Matt Graham's cell phone
along with
"are you done with her?"
and asking for celery with your ribs, not going to fly for the record Matt.

Glad I got to go on a Value Village adventure with Chantel too! Just like old times in Rexdale even though it was like 3 weeks ago.

Tomorrow is going to rule minus the bus ride to Toronto.

PS- Sexy can I????