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Toronto, Ontario, Canada

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

30 day challenge, day 14

Your earliest memory

I can't remember.
Alcohol is killing all my brain cells.

I just got a mark back from a paper that I would have gotten a 70 percent on but since I handed it in 2 days late I got a 50.
I suck.

"my parents got me a $80 gift card for kelsey's, so when i get back, i'm taking you out for a nice dinner"

I have the best, best friend ever.

30 day challenge, day 13

Somewhere you'd like to move or visit

I don't know if I'd want to move anywhere out of Canada but I have so many places I'd like to visit like Egypt, Japan, anywhere in the UK and Iceland.

Monday, November 29, 2010

Hello 1000th post :D
On a less fun note I stayed up all night doing a project that was originally due today but I just found out the deadline has been extended.
I am also so tired that I came to class an hour early. I'm losing my mind.

Sunday, November 28, 2010

30 day challenge, day 12

Bullet your whole day

  • woke up
  • cried
  • talked to Chantel and Bonnie
  • criedBulleted List
  • lost my voice
  • went to subway
  • lay in bed
  • finished watching harry potter 4
  • went to work
  • worked on fries
  • served dem fries
  • worked on cash and served big macs to big black guys
  • had fun at work for once
  • made a new friend
  • walked my new friend part way home
  • pulling an all nighter right now yeahh

I'm so glad I have a job I like and I get to work with awesome people.
Going to work made me feel so much better and I made a new friend :)

I hate how I make a big deal about everything, I especially hate how sensitive I am and how easily I get upset.
I don't know. Worse things could happen, people could think worse of me. I can't help that I care what everyone thinks though.

SO here's a fuck you to Barrie and mostly everyone in it. There's a reason that I haven't come back and why I wont ever be coming back. I love my life in Toronto. TORONTO FOREVER.

30 day challenge, day 11

Put your ipod on shuffle and write 10 songs that come up

1. Pull Out-DFA 1979
2. When I Grow Up-Pussycat Dolls WHAT'S UP SEXY?
3. Tie Me Down-New Boys Featuring Ray J
4. Crime Wave-Crystal Castles
5. Heartbeats-The Knife
6. Cannibal-Ke$ha RAH
7. Body-Mother Mother
8. Stripper-Soho Dolls
9. Pretty Boy Swag-Soulja Boy (why is my life so embarrassing?)
10. Sex and drugs(Benny Benassi Remix)-Hyper crush

I feel so used. I always feel so used.
I need to buy some pot so I can just smoke before bed instead of getting in these depressing moods.

Saturday, November 27, 2010

I'm laying in bed, eating taco bell that a cute boy bought me cause I'm broke, watching the breakfast club.

Friday, November 26, 2010

30 day challenge, day 10

Discuss your first love and fist kiss

Ok, my first love was my long term boyfriend from high school. You know who you are. We had a kind of fucked up relationship, kind of on and off and we were pretty immature so it was a learning experience, definitely something I don't regret. I recently met up with him earlier this year after not seeing him for 2 years. It was nice to catch up.

My first kiss went a little like this...
It was my first boyfriend in grade 9 and I was so nervous I think I missed but I made the first move. I'm so lame.

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

2 things I absolutely need in my life

I am going downtown to buy them asap, possibly this weekend.

30 day challenge, day 09

How you hope your future will look like

I hope it will look pretty, with rainbows and butterflies.
Jk, uh I can't even begin to predict where I will be or what I will be doing but I hope I will be happy.

No eyeliner, horrible complexion and raccoon sweater. Could I be any more attractive today?

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

The story of my life

My liver is going to stop working due to too much drinking, liver doesn't filter out alcohol anymore, alcohol just hangs out in my body=stay drunk forever


30 day challenge, day 08

A moment you felt most satisfied with your life

I don't have one set point in my life in which I have felt most satisfied with it.
I have a bunch of different moments when I have felt this way, mostly after an amazing weekend or day.

I miss him more than anyone. I can''t wait until I get to see him over Christmas break !!!! :D:D:D<3

Monday, November 22, 2010

One week ago I was in London, Ontario seeing one of my favorite bands, terror. I'm so sad that I have nothing to look forward to anymore. I have no id and I work all the time. I'm feeling down in the dumps.

I think I'm just going to watch Harry Potter until I fall asleep

my life is so fun.

30 day challenge, day 07

Your zodiac sign and if you think it fits your personality

I am an Aries but I don't believe shit about zodiac stuff.
All of the qualities that represent every zodiac sign can apply to pretty much anyone, regardless to when they were born.

I have a heart, I swear I do but just not baby when it comes to you.

Sunday, November 21, 2010

30 day challenge, day 06

Write 30 interesting facts about yourself

Oh god I'm so not interesting
1. I have an irrational fear of sharks, like in pools and shit
2. The only hard liquor I like to drink is gin
3. I have never dyed my hair
4. I still sleep with my favorite stuffed animal which is a blue pig named piggy
5. Out of all pets I like rodents the best
6. The only way I learn to do things properly is by actually doing them instead of reading about how to do it or watching someone else do it
7. I'm usually wearing a headband on my head (usually a bow)
8. I my favorite type of body type on a guy is a retardedly skinny body
9. I like guys with big noses
10. I don't ever wear jeans, I only wear tights
11. I wont ever make the first move on a guy unless I'm drunk
12. I have more weird nik naks in my room than you have ever seen in anyone else's room
13. I hate all sports and watching them
14. I'd rather shop for cheap clothing than brand names
15. People that don't know me think I'm really shy or don't like them because I never talk
16. I like to photograph products (inanimate objects) rather than people
17. I think hand me down clothes are great
18. 2 movies I will never watch under any circumstances are the ring and the grudge because they still give me nightmares
19. I could live off of jello and soup because they are the most convenient foods
20. I put extra, extra sauce on all my foods
21. I dip my pizza crust in mustard
22. I wear high heels on almost a daily basis
23. I tell my mom (almost) every detail of my life
24. I hate feet, looking at them, having mine touched, touching other peoples feet. It grosses me out
25. I have a really hard time keeping my room clean. I can't keep it clean for more than 3 days
26. I am offended really easily and a lot of little things people say to me offend me, even though they don't know it
27. I get 24 hour hangovers no matter how much water I drink afterward. I can't get rid of my hangovers. They are invincible for 24-30 hours after I drink
28. I enjoy kissing and cuddling with a boy more than doing anything regarding sex
29. My room looks like it belongs to a 10 year old girl
30. I feel weird when people I'm not good friends with go out of their way to talk to me

When young children go to bed, they check under their beds for the boogey-man. When the boogey-man goes to bed, he checks under his bed for Gaston.


Saturday, November 20, 2010

This is an idea of what I want my hair to look like, I wish I had the guts to do it.

Things I want to do but probably won't because as much as I'm sick of the way I look, I fear change and any of these things could possibly look ridiculous on me:
-Cut my hair
-Dye my hair a lighter blonde
-Get my septum pierced

Dah end.

Friday, November 19, 2010


A Christmas Carol.
Race to Witch Mountain.
Tinker Bell and the Lost Treasure.
Hannah Montana: The Movie.
Alice in Wonderland (old one not new)

Space Buddies.
Hatching Pete.

Tigger: Pooh and a Music Too.
The Princess and the Frog.
Princess Protection Program.

Old Dogs.
Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian.
Chronicles of Narnia: The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe.
High School Musical 3: Senior Year.
High School Musical 2
High School Musical.

College Road Trip.
Beverly Hills Chihuahua.
Camp Rock.

Little Mermaid III - Ariel’s Beginning.
Bedtime Stories.
The Cheetah Girls: One World.
Snow Buddies.
Meet The Robinsons.
Goal! 2: Living the Dream.
Jump In!
Johnny Kapahala: Back on Board.
Bridge to Terabithia.
Cinderella III: A Twist in Time.
Pirates of the Caribbean: At World’s End.
Pirates of the Caribbean: Dead Man’s Chest.
Pirates of the Caribbean: The Curse of the Black Pearl.

The Game Plan.
National Treasure: Book of Secrets.
National Treasure.
Twitches Too.
The Secret of the Magic Gourd.
The Shaggy Dog (the original not the new)
Eight Below.
The Wild.
Santa Clause 3: The Escape Clause.
Santa Clause 2: The Mrs. Clause.
Santa Clause.
Bambi II.
Glory Road.
The Fox and the Hound 2.
The Fox and the Hound.
Return to Halloweentown.
The Cheetah Girls 2.
Cow Belles.
Wendy Wu: Homecoming Warrior.
Read It and Weep.
Air Buddies.
Herbie Fully Loaded.
Chicken Little.
Buffalo Dreams.
Now You See It.
Kronk’s New Groove.
Pooh’s Heffalump Halloween Movie.
Sky High
Ice Princess.
The Pacifier.
Pooh’s Heffalump Movie.
Lilo and Stitch 2: Stitch Has a Glitch.
The Proud Family Movie.
Life is Ruff.
Go Figure.
Kim Possible Movie: So the Drama.
Once Upon a Mattress.
The Incredibles.
The Lion King.
The Lion King 1 1/2.

Mickey’s Twice Upon a Christmas.
Mulan II.
Howl’s Moving Castle.
Princess Diaries.
Princess Diaries 2: Royal Engagement.
The Three Musketeers.
Around the World in 80 Days.
Winnie The Pooh: Springtime with Roo.
Home on the Range.
Confessions of a Teenage Drama Queen.
Teacher’s Pet.
Stuck in the Suburbs.
Halloweentown High.
Zenon: Z3.
Finding Nemo.
The Haunted Mansion.
George of the Jungle.

George of the Jungle 2.
Freaky Friday.
Lizzie McGuire Movie.

Atlantis: Milo’s Return.
Piglet’s Big Movie.
The Jungle Book.
The Jungle Book 2.
Inspector Gadget.
Inspector Gadget 2.
101 Dalmations (animated).
101 Dalmations (live).
101 Dalmations II: Patch’s London Adventure.
Brother Bear.
The Even Stevens Movie.

The Cheetah Girls.
Air Bud Spikes Back.
The Rookie.
Winnie the Pooh: A Very Merry Christmas.
Treasure Planet.
Tuck Everlasting.
The Country Bears.
Lilo & Stitch.
Cinderella II: Dreams Come True.
Return to Neverland.
Peter Pan.
Snow Dogs.
Cadet Kelly.

Gotta Kick It Up!
Air Bud: Seventh Inning Fetch.
Monsters, Inc.
Spirited Away.
Atlantis: The Lost Empire.
Lady and the Tramp.

Lady and the Tramp II: Scamp’s Adventure.
Recess: School’s Out.
Mickey’s Magical Christmas: Snowed in at the House of Mouse.
Zenon: The Zequel.
Luck of the Irish.
Halloweentown II: Kalabar’s Revenge.
The Emperor’s New Groove.
102 Dalmations.
Remember the Titans.
Little Mermaid II: Return to Sea.

The Little Mermaid.
The Kid.
An Extremely Goofy Movie.
Air Bud 3: World Pup.
Toy Story.
Toy Story 2.
Toy Story 3

Fantasia 2000.

Mickey’s Once Upon a Christmas.
Doug’s 1st Movie.

My Favorite Martian.
A Bugs Life.
Lion King II: Simba’s Pride.

Mighty Joe Young.
I’ll Be Home For Christmas.
Air Bud: Golden Receiver.
Pocahontas II: Journey to a New World.
The Parent Trap

My Friends Tigger and Pooh: Super Sleuth Christmas.
Mr. Magoo.

Air Bud.
Muppet Treasure Island.
The Hunchback of Notre Dame.
D3: The Mighty Ducks.
D2: The Mighty Ducks.
The Mighty Ducks.T.
Homeward Bound.
Homeward Bound II: Lost in San Francisco.
James and the Giant Peach.
Tom and Huck.
Angels in the Outfield.
The Adventures of Huck Finn.
Cool Runnings.
The Rescuers Down Under.
The Rescuers.
Oliver and Company.

The Black Cauldron.
Herbie Goes Bananas.
Herbie Goes to Monte Carlo.
Pete’s Dragon.
Herbie Rides Again.
Robin Hood.
Bedknobs and Broomsticks.
The AristoCats.
The Love Bug.
Mary Poppins.
The Sword in the Stone.

Swiss Family Robinson.
20,000 Leagues Under the Sea.
Old Yeller.
Song of the South.
Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs.

Sleeping Beauty

30 day challenge, day 04

Your views on religion

I am agnostic at the present time because I'm still not sure of the existence of a higher power.
I was raised a christian and attended a catholic school all of my life. I used to be atheist for about 2 years of my life back in grade 9 and 10 then I became Christian up until grade 12.
I feel that there is no place for religion in my current life.

I have a cross tattoo on my middle finger that a lot of people think is for religious or anti religious purposes but it's just a fucking shape. It means nothing.

Thursday, November 18, 2010

30 day challenge, day 03

Your views on drugs and alcohol

I like to drink and get drunk at least once a week. It makes me less shy and more social which I like. I'm also a lot flirtier when I drink so that's when I have the courage to make moves on dem boys.

When it comes to drugs I smoke pot on occasion. It's a fun thing to do when you're bored and it makes life and the internet a hell of a lot more interesting.

I love it when people at work say I've gotten skinny. Some fucking thinspiration right there.

the fact that I don't know how to feel any other way makes me sad.

Reasons I'm glad I don't have a boyfriend
-I don't have to keep my room clean.

Messy room>boys.

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

30 day challenge, day 02

Where you'd like to be in 10 years

When I am 30, hoping I last that long I'd like to be doing something generic like be married, have kids and a dog or some shit like that.
I don't know.
Maybe be a photographer or a teacher, a photography teacher?
Making big bucks, not being fat and uh, I guess that is it.
I have big dreams. Jklol.

I’d give anything to be playing this in the near future.


I'm falling apart, literally.
My lip ring has made a huge hole in the back of my lip so I have to put a hoop in instead of a stud and I look like some rocker chick which sucks.
My throat is starting to get sore, I have a bruise under my eye from someone that stage dived onto me.
That is also why my back hurts immensely, like I'm 89 years old.
I have a permanent headache hangover and I'm tired as fuck.
All that is keeping me going right now is the fact that I'm gonna cook the best pizza when I get home.

I've had this never ending hunger, thirst and head ache for the past 3 days which makes me debate if I want to drink any booze for awhile.
I'm not sure if that is why I feel sick but I wouldn't be surprised because I drank so much on Saturday I swear I was probably so close to alcohol poisoning.

First and last time I'm passing out anywhere. No wonder I'm single but hey, at least I took the decency of passing out with my face covered.
And cool chunky arms going on. AWWWW YEAH.

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

30 day challenge, day 01

Your current relationship, if single discuss how the single life is.

Single life at first was just me getting fucked over by countless amounts of guys that made dumb excuses not to be with me. I have bad luck with guys so lately I've been getting fucked over not as much because I don't give boys a chance to get close to me.

Other than that, single life is fun. I get to do what I want with whoever I want and not have any particular feelings or commitments afterward for the most part. When I do end up having feelings for someone afterward I usually ignore it so I could have had feelings for pretty much any guy and they will have never known.

I don't remember what it's like being not single so I'd probably be bad in a relationship. Therefore Imma be single fo life. Who's with me?

Imma jump on the bandwagon

A year in pictures

November 2009

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Monday, November 15, 2010

This weekend was pretty great. I went to my schools gala on Friday with some friends and got kisses from a cute boy and got drinks from an open bar.
Last night I drank random liquor I found lying around so I don't remember how much I drank by the end of the night but I actually physically passed out which I never do. Before all of that I went downtown with a bunch of really fun people.
Today I ate about 5 days worth of food and didn't get up from the couch for like 7 hours. Me and Chantel like to make our living room our permanent home after a night of partying.
So much good about this weekend minus the fact that I am still hung over from last night.
Alchohol makes me love and hate my life so hard sometimes.

nodding my head like yeah

[] I am shorter than 5’4.
[x] I think I’m ugly sometimes.
[] I have many scars.
[] I tan easily.
[x] I wish my hair was a different color.
[] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[x] I have a tattoo
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[] I wear glasses
[x] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] I’ve been told I’m attractive by a complete stranger.
[x] I have more than 2 piercings.
[x] I have piercings in places besides my ears
[] I have freckles.

[x] I’ve sworn at my parents.
[] I’ve tried/I’ve run away from home.
[] I’ve been kicked out of the house.
[] My biological parents are together.
[] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want to have kids someday.
[x] I want to adopt someday.
[] I’ve lost a child.

[x] I’m in school
[x] I have a job.
[x] I’ve fallen asleep at work/school.
[] I almost always do my homework.
[] I’ve missed a week or more of school.
[] I’ve been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[x] I’ve stolen something from my job
[x] I’ve been fired.

[xxxxx] I’ve slipped out a “lol” in a spoken conversation.
[x] Disney movies still make me cry.
[x] I’ve snorted while laughing.
[x] I’ve laughed so hard I’ve cried.
[] I’ve glued my hand to something
[] I’ve laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
[] I’ve had my pants rip in public.

[] I was born with a disease/impairment.
[x] I’ve gotten stitches.
[] I’ve broken a bone.
[] I’ve had my tonsils removed.
[] I’ve sat in a doctors office with a friend.
[x] I’ve had my wisdom teeth removed.
[] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I’ve had chicken pox.
[] I have/had asthma.

[] I’ve driven over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I’ve been on a plane.
[x] I’ve been to Canada.
[x] I’ve been to Mexico.
[x] I’ve been to Niagara Falls.
[] I’ve been to Japan.
[] I’ve Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[x] I’ve been to Europe.
[] I’ve been to Africa.

[x] I’ve gotten lost in my city.
[x] I’ve seen a shooting star.
[x] I’ve wished on a shooting star.
[] I’ve seen a meteor shower.
[x] I’ve gone out in public in my pajamas.
[x] I’ve pushed all the buttons on an elevator
[x] I’ve kicked a guy where it hurts.
[x] I’ve been to a casino.
[] I’ve been skydiving.
[x] I’ve gone skinny dipping.
[x] I’ve played spin the bottle.
[x] I’ve drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[] I’ve crashed a car.
[x] I’ve been skiing.
[x] I’ve been in a play.
[] I’ve met someone in person from the internet.
[x] I’ve caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[] I’ve seen the Northern Lights.
[x] I’ve sat on a roof top at night.
[x] I’ve played a prank on someone.
[x] I’ve ridden in a taxi.
[x] I’ve seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[x] I’ve eaten Sushi.
[x] I’ve been snowboarding.

[] I’ve gone on a blind date.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[] I have a fear of abandonment.
[] I’ve gotten divorced.
[x] I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t.
[] I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did.
[] I’ve told someone I loved them and didn’t get a clear response.
[x] I’ve felt rejected even if I wasn’t.
[] I’ve loved someone I knew a friend was already in love with.

[x] I’ve done something I promised someone else I wouldn’t.
[x] I’ve done something I promised myself I wouldn’t.
[x] I’ve snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I’ve cheated while playing a game.
[x] I’ve cheated on a test.
[ ] I’ve been suspended from school.

[x] I’ve consumed alcohol.
[x] I regularly drink.
[ ] I can’t swallow pills.
[x] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem.
[] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[x] I shut others out when I’m depressed.
[] I take anti-depressants.
[] I have been diagnosed with anorexia or bullimia.
[x] I’ve slept an entire day when I didn’t need it.
[x] I’ve hurt myself on purpose.
[x] I’ve woken up crying.

[x] I’m afraid of dying.
[] I hate funerals.
[] I’ve seen someone dying.

[] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[x] I own an iPod or MP3 player.
[] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[] I own something from Hot Topic.
[] I own something from Pac Sun.
[] I collect comic books.
[x] I own something from The Gap.
[] I own something I got on e-bay.
[x] I own something from Abercrombie.

[x] I’ve stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[x] I open up to others easily.
[] I watch the news.
[] I don’t kill bugs.
[] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[x] I curse regularly.
[] I sing in the shower.
[] I am a morning person.
[] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[x] I obsess over grammar.
[] I am a sports fanatic.
[x] I twirl my hair.
[] I have “x”s in my screen name
[] I love being neat
[] I love spam.
[] I’ve copied more than 30 CD’s in a day
[] I can cook.
[x] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red, black or blue.
[] I would wear pajamas to school.
[] I like Martha Stewart.
[x] I know how to shoot a gun.
[] I am in love with love.
[] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes.
[x] I eat fast food weekly.
[] I believe in ghosts.
[x] I am online a lot, even as an away message.
[x] I’ve not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[x] I can’t sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I can’t sleep if there is a roach in the room.
[] I am really ticklish.
[] I love white chocolate.
[] I bite my nails.
[x] I play video games.
[] I’m good at remembering faces.
[] I’m good at remembering names.
[x] I’m good at remembering dates.
[] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life

Thursday, November 11, 2010

I want to be skinnier. Bah.

I write about what I want, about who I want, when I want in here. It's how I deal. Don't like it?
I don't give a shit.

Tomorrow I am going to travel to the passport office to get my shit figured out for my passport then I get to go to a fancy mardi gras gala with a bunch of my friends and a cute boy as my guest. So Yay I guess...

Had to get up at 6 45 just to pick my courses for next semester and hear people talk about how my picture of Amanda doesn't look like Amanda. Like HI...do you think that is what I want to hear at 6 in the fucking morning? No, not really so maybe you should think about what you say to me and fuck off.
And yeah. I didn't get the class I wanted to for Wednesday LIKE I KNEW I WOULDN'T BECAUSE NOTHING EVER WORKS OUT so I get Wednesday off and Fridays not off.
Oh and if you didn't notice I updated every single one of my social networking things to tell everyone how mad I am because I am that fucking mad.
Not in the mood for anyone today so please leave me alone.
I'm glad all of you got all the nice little courses you wanted. Weeee :D

Secondly I am pissed because my passport didn't come in and I waited a month for it. So that is just really really amazing. I'm never going to get to visit my best friend which makes me want to cry.
And I'm losing 10 percent in one of my classes because I have a concert to go to and the teacher recently rescheduled a test on the day that I am going and wont change it for me. So never mind about next semester, I'm going to fail out of school before then. This weekend better rule so hard that I forget any of this bad shit exists.

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

I'm so excited for Christmas break. Why can't it be Christmas break now? I want to be making tons of cash please and thanks, none of this 1 shift a week bullshit :'(

Sunday, November 7, 2010

Since over the Christmas break I will be all alone in my house with nothing to do besides go to work I am going to purchase either a playstation or a playstation 2.
I already have a list of games I've always wanted to play but never got around to it.

so relevant to my life

Saturday, November 6, 2010

I have to believe in a world outside my own mind. I have to believe that my actions still have meaning, even if I can't remember them. I have to believe that when my eyes are closed, the world's still there. Do I believe the world's still there? Is it still out there?... Yeah. We all need mirrors to remind ourselves who we are. I'm no different.
-Memento (2000)

All I've done all day is lay in bed.
I feel so comfy but so uneasy about the fact that in the past 7 hours I have burned negative calories because I have neglected to move out of this one spot.
What a sober weekend but at least I got cuddles.

Thursday, November 4, 2010

My house smells like the fiery pits of hell mixed with tofu and it is driving me completely insane.
This weekend is going to suck. Work neglected to schedule me for a second week in a row so I don't know what to do with myself.
I wish I had a cute boy to make plans with to fill the void of Chantel not being here but alas, no such boy exists.
I want to go grocery shopping but I figure it's easier to not spend money and starve.

I'm always wishing, I'm always wishing too late
For things to come my way
It always ends up the same

You're too pretty to be weird and too weird to be pretty.
And you feel strange when people try to talk to you.
And you feel strange when people try to talk to you.
And you feel strange when people try to talk to you.
And you feel strange when people try to talk to you.

So strange.

This song

blows my mind

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

I just need something to grasp at

I'm the girl that would choose skirts over sweatpants because sweatpants are ugly as hell. I'm the girl who wakes up early cause I'd rather not go through the day looking like a piece of shit. I'm the girl that has 38475435 hairstyles cause my hair rules and I'm not a lazy fuck. I'm the girl who tries not to eat too much. I'm the girl that can walk in heels for hours on end cause I'm fancy like that. I'm the girl who never means what she says. I'm the girl who can never manage to hold herself together and say "I'm fine" when everything is going wrong. I'm the girl who is too shy to put a middle finger to the world. I'm the girl who doesn't pretend to be tougher than most guys cause that's retarded. I'm the girl that cares what everyone thinks. & I deserve an award because not most bitches can't walk in heels.

Today I woke up at 8 to go to school for 50 minutes. Super awesome 3 hours of sleep. I've been napping in my bed since 10 in my freshly washed blankets, sheets and pillows and it was the best nap ever.
I love laundry smell.

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

my personality:

* i’m loud.
* i’m obnoxious.
* i’m sarcastic.
* i’m cocky.
* i cry easily.
* i have a bad temper.
* for the most part i don’t like people.
* i’m easy to get along with.
* i have more enemies than friends.
* i’ve smoked but i don’t smoke.
* i’ve smoked weed once when drunk.
* i drink coffee.
* i clean my room daily.

my appearance:

* i wear makeup.
* i wear a piece of jewelry at all times.
* i wear contacts.
* i wear glasses.
* i have braces.
* i change my hair colour often
* i straighten my hair often
* i have a piercing
* i have small feet


* i’m in a relationship now.
* i’m single.
* i’m crushin’.
* i’m in love.
* i’m always scared of being hurt.
* an ex has physically abused me at least once.
* i’ve told someone i loved them when i didn’t.
* i’ve told someone i didn’t love them when i did.
* i believe in love at first sight.
* i believe lust is more important than love. HOLLLLLLLA


* i have a best friend.
* i have at least ten friends.
* i’ve gotten a phone call in the last 48 hours from a friend.
* i’ve beaten up a friend.
* i’ve been in a serious fight with a friend.
* i can trust at least five people with my life.


* i’ve been on a plane.
* someone close to me has died.
* i’ve taken a taxi.
* i’ve taken a city bus.
* i’ve taken a school bus.
* i’ve gone bungee jumping.
* i’ve made a speech.
* i’ve been in some sort of club.
* i’ve won an award.
* i’ve spent 24 hours on the computer straight.
* i’ve been in a physical fight


* i listen to r&b.
* i listen to country.
* i listen to pop.
* i listen to techno.
* i listen to rock.
* i’m one of those people who play songs repeatedly until i hate it.
* i hate the radio.
* i download music.
* i buy cd’s.


* i spend at least six hours a day watching television.
* i watch soap operas daily.
* i’m in love with days of our lives.
* i’ve seen and liked the o.c.
* i’ve seen and liked one tree hill.
* i’ve seen and like americas next top model.
* i’ve seen and like popular.
* i’ve seen and like 24.
* i’ve seen and liked csi.
* i’ve seen and like everwood.

family life:

* i get along with both of my parents.
* my biological parents are still together.
* i have at least one sister.
* i have at least one step brother/sister.
* i have at least one half brother/sister.
* i’ve been kicked out of the house.
* i’ve ran away from my home.
* i’ve sworn at my parents.
* i’ve made my parents cry.
* i’ve lied to my parents.
* i’ve lied to my parents about where i am.
* i’ve lied to my parents about what i’m doing.
* i’ve lied to my parents so i’d be allowed out.
* i’ve walked out when i’ve been grounded.


* i’ve been brown.
* i’ve cut my hair in the past year.
* i’ve dyed my hair in the past year.
* i’ve been blonde.
* i’ve had black.
* i’ve been red.
* i’ve been light brown.
* i’ve been medium brown.
* i’ve been blue/green.
* i’ve gotten my hair thinned.
* i use conditioner.
* i’ve used silk therapy.
* i’ve used hot oil treatments.
* i’ve curled my hair.
* i’ve straightened my hair.
* i’ve ironed my hair.
* i’ve braided my hair.


* i’ve yelled at a teacher.
* i’ve been suspended.
* i’ve had an in-school suspension.
* i’ve been sent to the principals office.
* i’ve walked out of class.
* i’ve skipped an entire day of school.
* i’ve skipped a whole month of one certain class.
* i’ve failed a test.
* i’ve cheated on a test.
* i’ve helped someone else cheat on a test.
* i’ve failed art.
* i’ve failed p.e.
* i’ve failed math.
* i’ve failed science.
* i’ve failed another class.
* a teacher has called my parents

Monday, November 1, 2010

I drank so so so much this weekend. No drinking for a week plz.
So sososososososo hungover right now sitting waiting fo class. I could think of 4857723467 funner things to do right now....