Friday, December 31, 2010
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
The fact that I kept going on about how I was so proud of myself for being less shy around people, especially at work makes me so happy.
I'm friends with everyone at work and I love all the people I work with.
Work is all I talk about because I'm working more than I have since the summer but I really want to ask for a promotion to be a crew trainer since I'm clearly a McDonalds lifer.
I'm so tired of going out of my way to go downtown only to wander around like a drunken fool and not get into bars.
I mean, I love spending time with my friends who live there but I just want to get drunk and dance at a club for once.
I got myself so goddamn lost in downtown Toronto last night and was so drunk that I got into a car with some random guy. Like so sketchy.
HOW THE FUCK I ENDED UP AT BATHURST STATION I'LL NEVER KNOW
but what I do know is...when in trouble just cry because when people see you crying they will help you out.
idk I'm dumb bye.
Saturday, December 25, 2010
fuck all you hoes
get a grip
let them talk
it ain't my fault
let them stay
let them snitch
let them be
let them die
let them hate
it ain't my fault they at the bottom
let them stay
let them say
let them lie
let them snitch
let them be
let them die
Thursday, December 23, 2010
The only things I want for Christmas is money so I can pay my rent at the end of this month and my best friend.
I'm going to have no money left over from Christmas unless some stupid fuck decides to give me a giftcard.
My life is fucking sad. I'm not even going to get to go home for Christmas because of my fucking job and the fact that I can't afford to spend Christmas break sitting on my ass and partying.
I need Matt to get here so we can cuddle.
Last nigh I dreamed I got promoted to team leader at McDonalds.
THIS IS WHAT I DREAM ABOUT.
My dreams are so sad.
Plus we all know I'm never getting promoted.
THIS FUCKING SONG RIGHT NOW
BLOWING MY MIND
Monday, December 20, 2010
I still can't get over the fact that I went to my friends house to drink on Friday night and barely socialized with anyone. I'm embarrassed of the way I am. Like who goes to a party and just sits there and get's drunk by themselves? Who sits there and waits for someone to think they are interesting enough to take two seconds of their time to talk to or see if they are ok or find out why they sitting by themselves?
These are the kinds of things I fucking do and I hate myself for it. I hate me for putting myself in a situation where I acted like this. I know this isn't a big deal but like most things, it is a big deal to me.
Sunday, December 19, 2010
Everyone's facebook status today is all about how they are so hungover and about how much fun they had last night.
I think I'm done with partying until Chantel's birthday. Last night my night consisted of bed, warm blankets, watching castle in the sky, internetz, very little clothing and smoking.This what what I do when I'm by myself U JELLY? Best Saturday night eva.
Saturday, December 18, 2010
The next week is going to be dedicated to me and getting my life together.
Spending long amounts of time, alone, cleaning, watching movies, working out, going to work.
So oddly stoked.
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
* Canned soup
* Marshmallow Fluff
* Green Tea
* Skim Milk
* Nesquick Strawberry Flavor Milk Mix
* Diet Coke With A Shot of Vanilla in it
* Fudge Sundaes
* Curry Chicken Flavored Mr. Noodles
* Fried Eggs
* Shrimp Chips
* Cherry Tomatoes/ Regular Tomatos
* Crunchy Peanut butter
* Pabst Blue Ribbon Light
* Hot Sauce
* Baby Carrots
* Masala Flavored Hummus
* Shrimp Rings
* Baby Carrots
* Mixed Canned Beans
* RADIATOR PASTA
* Extra Spicy Chicken Wings
* Miso Soup
* Raw Hot Dogs
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
watch a shitload of animated movies including:
Yellow Submarine (preferable while high) shit looks trippy as hell
The Thief and the Cobbler
Secret Of NIMH
The Secret of Kells
The Triplets of Belleville
Legend of The Guardians : The Owls of Ga Hoole
Nausicaa of the Valley of the Wind
Howl's Moving Castle
Fantastic Mr. Fox
Castle in the Sky
Fantastic Planet (looks absolutely terrifying but I'll give it a try)
Mary & Max
Whisper of the Heart
Kiki's Delivery Service
My Neighbor Totoro
Monday, December 13, 2010
On Saturday I went downtown to Sneaky Dees and used my passport (aka my real ID cause I haven't had a real one in a year) for the first time.
Other than the fact that I've begun to dress like an old lady, life has been pretty alright. I finish exams this week but I'm not going home for the holidays.
I decided that down here in Rexdale I can't/will not be friends with any girls other than my roommates because all the girls I meet down here are stupid, annoying hoes.
BOYS AS FRIENDS FOREVA!!!
Saturday, December 11, 2010
Friday, December 10, 2010
cause I have bad dreams. My mom tried to convince me that my room was haunted because I hear a woman screaming in my dreams and I can still hear it when I wake up. I can't even explain the dream I had last night but all I really remember was that I was sleeping in what looked like my grandmothers living room and people had died in that room in the dream. What the fuck. :(
Thursday, December 9, 2010
You know how subatomic particles don't obey physical laws? They act according to chance, chaos, coincidence. They run into each other in the middle of the universe somewhere, and bang! Energy! That's the great thing about the universe. It's unpredictable. That's why it's so much fun.
Wednesday, December 8, 2010
This is too broad of a subject...
I don't know.
I believe that there is no such thing as a faithful relationship.
I believe that to get something, you have to work for it. If it's not worth it, don't give it any effort.
Only put effort in for the things you really, really want because having your efforts wasted on something or someone is probably one of the most horrible feelings.
I believe in the statement "why do today what you can put off till tomorrow?". Procrastinator for life. I believe that everyone talks shit about everyone behind their back, no matter who they are.
I looked so festive today, too bad no one saw me.
When I was going through my shit today I found lingerie that I bought and only wore once because I bought it to wear for some stupid guy that I wasn't even dating. I don't even see or talk to him anymore. What a waste of money. What the fuck am I gonna do with all this cute lingerie? Fml.
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
The OC, YTV, Charlie Chaplin, Beauty and the Beast, Hannah Montana, kids video games, promiscuous dancing, gin shots, Lindsay Lohan, Red Lobster, canned soup, Heath Ledgers's accent in Brokeback Mountain, hair bows, Party Monster, lipstick, Titanic, milk, on screen kisses, kittens, Drake, Cudi, bones, Mean girls and heavy petting. God, I fucking love that.
I need something to watch so I think I'm going to watch the whole skins series again instead of studying for my exams this week.
I already watched every episode of misfits and there's nothing I want to watch. I sorta gave up on glee and reality television. Degrassi isn't on till the new year and I don't know where the hell Doctor Who went.
I also took a bunch of pictures that I want to put up on my flickr but it's too much work. Do it 4 me k?
Sunday, December 5, 2010
My favorite days are days when I don't leave my bed all day until it's time to go out at night. I wish I had a tiny kitten that could cuddle with me all day. There's a black kitten always hanging around my house and I am devising plans to catch it and make it mine.
I'm going to get high and go to the mandarin soon. This could quite possibly the best day ever.
Saturday, December 4, 2010
Your highs and lows of this past year
My biggest low was probably when I found out that a guy I really liked was with a girl that I thought was a lot less pretty than me. I obsessed over the fact that he picked her over me for months and would get upset about it almost every weekend. After I found out I think I cried for 4 days straight because I'm an emotional bitch.
Highs of this past year was pretty much most of the summer because everything that happened was just so great and I spent time with the most amazing people including my best friend who I practically lived with. Oh and also getting asked out on a date in February by the most amazing guy (or so I thought at the time).
Friday, December 3, 2010
I wish I could take Friday, November 12th and put it on repeat as every Friday night.
& yet again the ONE little tiny corner of the fridge that I have for my food has been taken up. So I guess I'm not buying groceries. Like sorry I don't have 347678834 tons of food in there to take up my one little tiny corner at the the moment but it wouldn't kill you to LEAVE IT EMPTY SO I CAN PUT MY GROCERIES THERE WHEN I BUY THEM SO I DON'T STARVE.
Thursday, December 2, 2010
Your views on mainstream music
If it's mainstream, has a good beat and isn't being play 5 times an hour on the radio then I like it. One thing I can't stand is when I find an amazing song that no one else knows about then the radio finds it and plays it to death. UGG.
In my experience there isn't any problem that can't be solved by getting really, really drunk.
Best thing I've heard all day.
waking up sad for no reason is my least favorite part of the day.
So I'm officially, temporarily obsessed with Misfits and these two beautiful boys:
ESPECIALLY THIS ONE:
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
I can be your new favorite waste of time, and you'll be mine.
All I want is your attention, it's all the same thing.
Are you in? What's it gonna be?
Don't roll with the punches, make it hard for me baby.
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
I just got a mark back from a paper that I would have gotten a 70 percent on but since I handed it in 2 days late I got a 50.
"my parents got me a $80 gift card for kelsey's, so when i get back, i'm taking you out for a nice dinner"
I have the best, best friend ever.
Monday, November 29, 2010
Hello 1000th post :D
On a less fun note I stayed up all night doing a project that was originally due today but I just found out the deadline has been extended.
I am also so tired that I came to class an hour early. I'm losing my mind.
Sunday, November 28, 2010
Bullet your whole day
- woke up
- talked to Chantel and Bonnie
- lost my voice
- went to subway
- lay in bed
- finished watching harry potter 4
- went to work
- worked on fries
- served dem fries
- worked on cash and served big macs to big black guys
- had fun at work for once
- made a new friend
- walked my new friend part way home
- pulling an all nighter right now yeahh
I'm so glad I have a job I like and I get to work with awesome people.
Going to work made me feel so much better and I made a new friend :)
I hate how I make a big deal about everything, I especially hate how sensitive I am and how easily I get upset.
I don't know. Worse things could happen, people could think worse of me. I can't help that I care what everyone thinks though.
SO here's a fuck you to Barrie and mostly everyone in it. There's a reason that I haven't come back and why I wont ever be coming back. I love my life in Toronto. TORONTO FOREVER.
Put your ipod on shuffle and write 10 songs that come up
1. Pull Out-DFA 1979
2. When I Grow Up-Pussycat Dolls WHAT'S UP SEXY?
3. Tie Me Down-New Boys Featuring Ray J
4. Crime Wave-Crystal Castles
5. Heartbeats-The Knife
6. Cannibal-Ke$ha RAH
7. Body-Mother Mother
8. Stripper-Soho Dolls
9. Pretty Boy Swag-Soulja Boy (why is my life so embarrassing?)
10. Sex and drugs(Benny Benassi Remix)-Hyper crush
I feel so used. I always feel so used.
I need to buy some pot so I can just smoke before bed instead of getting in these depressing moods.
Saturday, November 27, 2010
Friday, November 26, 2010
Discuss your first love and fist kiss
Ok, my first love was my long term boyfriend from high school. You know who you are. We had a kind of fucked up relationship, kind of on and off and we were pretty immature so it was a learning experience, definitely something I don't regret. I recently met up with him earlier this year after not seeing him for 2 years. It was nice to catch up.
My first kiss went a little like this...
It was my first boyfriend in grade 9 and I was so nervous I think I missed but I made the first move. I'm so lame.
Wednesday, November 24, 2010
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
Monday, November 22, 2010
One week ago I was in London, Ontario seeing one of my favorite bands, terror. I'm so sad that I have nothing to look forward to anymore. I have no id and I work all the time. I'm feeling down in the dumps.
my life is so fun.
Sunday, November 21, 2010
Write 30 interesting facts about yourself
Oh god I'm so not interesting
1. I have an irrational fear of sharks, like in pools and shit
2. The only hard liquor I like to drink is gin
3. I have never dyed my hair
4. I still sleep with my favorite stuffed animal which is a blue pig named piggy
5. Out of all pets I like rodents the best
6. The only way I learn to do things properly is by actually doing them instead of reading about how to do it or watching someone else do it
7. I'm usually wearing a headband on my head (usually a bow)
8. I my favorite type of body type on a guy is a retardedly skinny body
9. I like guys with big noses
10. I don't ever wear jeans, I only wear tights
11. I wont ever make the first move on a guy unless I'm drunk
12. I have more weird nik naks in my room than you have ever seen in anyone else's room
13. I hate all sports and watching them
14. I'd rather shop for cheap clothing than brand names
15. People that don't know me think I'm really shy or don't like them because I never talk
16. I like to photograph products (inanimate objects) rather than people
17. I think hand me down clothes are great
18. 2 movies I will never watch under any circumstances are the ring and the grudge because they still give me nightmares
19. I could live off of jello and soup because they are the most convenient foods
20. I put extra, extra sauce on all my foods
21. I dip my pizza crust in mustard
22. I wear high heels on almost a daily basis
23. I tell my mom (almost) every detail of my life
24. I hate feet, looking at them, having mine touched, touching other peoples feet. It grosses me out
25. I have a really hard time keeping my room clean. I can't keep it clean for more than 3 days
26. I am offended really easily and a lot of little things people say to me offend me, even though they don't know it
27. I get 24 hour hangovers no matter how much water I drink afterward. I can't get rid of my hangovers. They are invincible for 24-30 hours after I drink
28. I enjoy kissing and cuddling with a boy more than doing anything regarding sex
29. My room looks like it belongs to a 10 year old girl
30. I feel weird when people I'm not good friends with go out of their way to talk to me
Saturday, November 20, 2010
Things I want to do but probably won't because as much as I'm sick of the way I look, I fear change and any of these things could possibly look ridiculous on me:
-Cut my hair
-Dye my hair a lighter blonde
-Get my septum pierced
Friday, November 19, 2010
A Christmas Carol.
Race to Witch Mountain.
Tinker Bell and the Lost Treasure.
Hannah Montana: The Movie.
Alice in Wonderland (old one not new)
Tigger: Pooh and a Music Too.
The Princess and the Frog.
Princess Protection Program.
Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian.
Chronicles of Narnia: The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe.
High School Musical 3: Senior Year.
High School Musical 2
High School Musical.
College Road Trip.
Beverly Hills Chihuahua.
Little Mermaid III - Ariel’s Beginning.
The Cheetah Girls: One World.
Meet The Robinsons.
Goal! 2: Living the Dream.
Johnny Kapahala: Back on Board.
Bridge to Terabithia.
Cinderella III: A Twist in Time.
Pirates of the Caribbean: At World’s End.
Pirates of the Caribbean: Dead Man’s Chest.
Pirates of the Caribbean: The Curse of the Black Pearl.
The Game Plan.
National Treasure: Book of Secrets.
The Secret of the Magic Gourd.
The Shaggy Dog (the original not the new)
Santa Clause 3: The Escape Clause.
Santa Clause 2: The Mrs. Clause.
The Fox and the Hound 2.
The Fox and the Hound.
Return to Halloweentown.
The Cheetah Girls 2.
Wendy Wu: Homecoming Warrior.
Read It and Weep.
Herbie Fully Loaded.
Now You See It.
Kronk’s New Groove.
Pooh’s Heffalump Halloween Movie.
Pooh’s Heffalump Movie.
Lilo and Stitch 2: Stitch Has a Glitch.
The Proud Family Movie.
Life is Ruff.
Kim Possible Movie: So the Drama.
Once Upon a Mattress.
The Lion King.
The Lion King 1 1/2.
Mickey’s Twice Upon a Christmas.
Howl’s Moving Castle.
Princess Diaries 2: Royal Engagement.
The Three Musketeers.
Around the World in 80 Days.
Winnie The Pooh: Springtime with Roo.
Home on the Range.
Confessions of a Teenage Drama Queen.
Stuck in the Suburbs.
The Haunted Mansion.
George of the Jungle.
George of the Jungle 2.
Lizzie McGuire Movie.
Atlantis: Milo’s Return.
Piglet’s Big Movie.
The Jungle Book.
The Jungle Book 2.
Inspector Gadget 2.
101 Dalmations (animated).
101 Dalmations (live).
101 Dalmations II: Patch’s London Adventure.
The Even Stevens Movie.
The Cheetah Girls.
Air Bud Spikes Back.
Winnie the Pooh: A Very Merry Christmas.
The Country Bears.
Lilo & Stitch.
Cinderella II: Dreams Come True.
Return to Neverland.
Gotta Kick It Up!
Air Bud: Seventh Inning Fetch.
Atlantis: The Lost Empire.
Lady and the Tramp.
Lady and the Tramp II: Scamp’s Adventure.
Recess: School’s Out.
Mickey’s Magical Christmas: Snowed in at the House of Mouse.
Zenon: The Zequel.
Luck of the Irish.
Halloweentown II: Kalabar’s Revenge.
The Emperor’s New Groove.
Remember the Titans.
Little Mermaid II: Return to Sea.
The Little Mermaid.
An Extremely Goofy Movie.
Air Bud 3: World Pup.
Toy Story 2.
Toy Story 3
Mickey’s Once Upon a Christmas.
Doug’s 1st Movie.
My Favorite Martian.
A Bugs Life.
Lion King II: Simba’s Pride.
Mighty Joe Young.
I’ll Be Home For Christmas.
Air Bud: Golden Receiver.
Pocahontas II: Journey to a New World.
The Parent Trap
My Friends Tigger and Pooh: Super Sleuth Christmas.
Muppet Treasure Island.
The Hunchback of Notre Dame.
D3: The Mighty Ducks.
D2: The Mighty Ducks.
The Mighty Ducks.T.
Homeward Bound II: Lost in San Francisco.
James and the Giant Peach.
Tom and Huck.
Angels in the Outfield.
The Adventures of Huck Finn.
The Rescuers Down Under.
Oliver and Company.
The Black Cauldron.
Herbie Goes Bananas.
Herbie Goes to Monte Carlo.
Herbie Rides Again.
Bedknobs and Broomsticks.
The Love Bug.
The Sword in the Stone.
Swiss Family Robinson.
20,000 Leagues Under the Sea.
Song of the South.
Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs.
Your views on religion
I am agnostic at the present time because I'm still not sure of the existence of a higher power.
I was raised a christian and attended a catholic school all of my life. I used to be atheist for about 2 years of my life back in grade 9 and 10 then I became Christian up until grade 12.
I feel that there is no place for religion in my current life.
I have a cross tattoo on my middle finger that a lot of people think is for religious or anti religious purposes but it's just a fucking shape. It means nothing.
Thursday, November 18, 2010
Your views on drugs and alcohol
I like to drink and get drunk at least once a week. It makes me less shy and more social which I like. I'm also a lot flirtier when I drink so that's when I have the courage to make moves on dem boys.
When it comes to drugs I smoke pot on occasion. It's a fun thing to do when you're bored and it makes life and the internet a hell of a lot more interesting.
I love it when people at work say I've gotten skinny. Some fucking thinspiration right there.
the fact that I don't know how to feel any other way makes me sad.
Reasons I'm glad I don't have a boyfriend
-I don't have to keep my room clean.
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
Where you'd like to be in 10 years
When I am 30, hoping I last that long I'd like to be doing something generic like be married, have kids and a dog or some shit like that.
I don't know.
Maybe be a photographer or a teacher, a photography teacher?
Making big bucks, not being fat and uh, I guess that is it.
I have big dreams. Jklol.
I’d give anything to be playing this in the near future.
I'm falling apart, literally.
My lip ring has made a huge hole in the back of my lip so I have to put a hoop in instead of a stud and I look like some rocker chick which sucks.
My throat is starting to get sore, I have a bruise under my eye from someone that stage dived onto me.
That is also why my back hurts immensely, like I'm 89 years old.
I have a permanent headache hangover and I'm tired as fuck.
All that is keeping me going right now is the fact that I'm gonna cook the best pizza when I get home.
I've had this never ending hunger, thirst and head ache for the past 3 days which makes me debate if I want to drink any booze for awhile.
I'm not sure if that is why I feel sick but I wouldn't be surprised because I drank so much on Saturday I swear I was probably so close to alcohol poisoning.
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
Your current relationship, if single discuss how the single life is.
Single life at first was just me getting fucked over by countless amounts of guys that made dumb excuses not to be with me. I have bad luck with guys so lately I've been getting fucked over not as much because I don't give boys a chance to get close to me.
Other than that, single life is fun. I get to do what I want with whoever I want and not have any particular feelings or commitments afterward for the most part. When I do end up having feelings for someone afterward I usually ignore it so I could have had feelings for pretty much any guy and they will have never known.
I don't remember what it's like being not single so I'd probably be bad in a relationship. Therefore Imma be single fo life. Who's with me?