repeat after me

I still can't get over the fact that I went to my friends house to drink on Friday night and barely socialized with anyone. I'm embarrassed of the way I am. Like who goes to a party and just sits there and get's drunk by themselves? Who sits there and waits for someone to think they are interesting enough to take two seconds of their time to talk to or see if they are ok or find out why they sitting by themselves?

These are the kinds of things I fucking do and I hate myself for it. I hate me for putting myself in a situation where I acted like this. I know this isn't a big deal but like most things, it is a big deal to me.