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Tuesday, December 30, 2008


actually what I'm trying to say is

When I'm with you, I can just be myself
You're always where you said you will be
Shocking cause I never knew love like this could exist.

2008 was by far my favorite year of my life so far.
Here are a few of my most important memories that happened this year.

Started new years off with someone that isn't part of my life anymore but for the better. Fun times on spares with Katie and Kylie and A&W sausage and eggers with chocolate milk. Driving around after school to random places in Toronto. Meeting regular hamster. This is where me and my best friends lives went down hill but in a good way. We were no longer "the good kids". Started/ finished applying to university.

Film class with Katie. Skipping class everyday and pissing off teachers doing it. More random trips to the mall during class and after school with Pat and Katie. Had the best Valentines Day ever because I ate at red lobster and didn't have to pay, I went to go see definitely maybe then went to the dollar store and laughed at all of the random Asian shit they had there. Blue mountain plans started for March Break. I don't know exactly when we got stuck in Wasaga with my little brother but I'm sure it was around here.

Blue mountain weekend with all of my former friends and Pat and Katie. Sketchy hot tub/snowstorm/17 year old having sex with a 23 year old night. Plenty of underage drinking and the 1st time I tried pot/cigs. Katie's face plant...need I say more? Got accepted to Guelph Humber University.

Our abandoned places faze started. Edgar/camp turnaround/driving down random roads and scaring the shit out of ourselves (which we still do). Driving Pat's car in the parking lot at the Molson center. Applied to work at Mcdonalds. My 18th birthday where I dropped my cell phone in a toilet and drove around in the trunk of a car. Got my guinea pig Marty. Going to the park downtown with my friends on spare and playing like we were 12. Filmed the camp turnaround movie which was probably the scariest night of my life. Drove around wearing the scary mask that we were going to use for our movie and yelling out the window to people. Started making after prom reservations at Wasaga.

Met Ashley and Kaleigh and proceeded to hang out with them on me and Pat's spare. Joseph and the Technicolor dream coat production. Random drunken cat fight/drive in night with Pat, Katie and Cara. Cancelled after prom reservations at Wasaga and made better ones at Katie's cottage. Got accepted to the University of Ottawa for a BA. Had fun with honesty box photos...AHAHHA. My group of best friends split apart because some people were really big bitches and really big Jesus freaks. Listening to Cher/HSM/ really loud in Pat's car. Accepted the offer from Guelph- Humber to attend in the Fall.

Played in the sprinklers downtown, clothed. Met Chantel in my Mcdonalds training class who just so happened to be going to the same University as me in the fall. Got my prom dress. Got ready for prom with Katie and her sister. Sat through a shitty prom but Pat was prom king so it was worth it. AFTER PROM!: Drinking, driving people to and from after prom, Zach passing out the first night in his puke, Ryan puking on my foot, people funneling, swimming at 5 in the morning with people I wish I never met, sleeping in a tent and our lanterns (L). Being so hungry and hungover I could have died, canoeing, half skinny dipping, truth or dare, Pat skinny dipping, hearing things I was never meant to hear, drawing on Pat's face, the after prom video, Pat's heartburn. Being so sad after prom was over and breaking up for the last time with my on and off boyfriend of 2 years. Thought I was going to fail grade 12 but did well considering that I skipped A LOT of classes. Hated almost everyone in grade 12. Graduation and finding a new crush. Crazy long weekends at Mcdonalds. Got over my first love and stayed strong. Marty getting scurvy and graduation with none of my best friends.

Lost a best friends and kissed a ginger......AHAHA go me. Wayyy to start off the month. Crushed on Matt Graham from work who didn't want to go out with me because I was going away to school. Finally hung out with him and had huge talks about aids and cucumber salads. Got drunk downtown and drove a lot with nothing to do with Pat because Katie was in Florida. Talked infront of Ryan's house with Pat and Katie until about 4 in the morning.

Our introduction to Micky Avalon by Raven on our way to the upper Canada mall. More long weekends at McDonald's. Went to wonderland with the McDonald's crew who got me to smoke about 10 cigarettes and some weed. Finally went on that Bungee jumping thing at wonderland. Burned my arm with hot oil from hash browns. Me and Matt started dating which made my summer that much more amazing because we always went to partys. Going to the dock, thinking that there would be something to do there but there never was. Went to a couple shows with Chantel. Jeremy's party where I fell over a table, blacked out and was hung over for the next 3 days. Pokemon snap and ding dong. Jump start at the university with Chantel and considering taking 6 months off. Became a smoker for this month, pretty much. Trevor's going away party/random pool party with Matt's friends where we were all drunk and he was sober. Chantels random party where I sucked at beer pong. The science center and how we had such high hopes for it but it still sucked. Many sleepovers at Matt G's occurred from this point on.

Missing summer and my first day of university. Foam party and dancing with hot, half naked boys/ dying in the foam/ sleeping in a bed with some random boy. Girltalk with me and Chantel's vodka and dancing up on a stage with a whole bunch of people I didn't know then driving home with Mackenzie to Barrie and all of us sleeping in Chantel's basement. My first graveyard shift with the ghost that lived in drive thru. Getting my nose and web pierced. Commuting back and forth everyday for school with Chantel and Kaitlin. Random drinking night for Camille's birthday on rez which is the night I found a new crush. Hot boxing a car and my really big failed attempt at smoking a joint. Got drunk pretty much once every week up to the present day. Became a day lady at McDonald's.


Skipped class to go to a football game with my boyfriend and his friends. Got drunk and puked on someones lawn on the way to the game. Bought weed for the first time in a drunken state of course and smoked it with Matt a girl from work and Randoms in a forest. I'm really sketchy. Got drunk and puked outside a McDonald's because I'm fucking classy like that. Played kings with tequila shots. Got my second guinea pig named Maxxie. Rode the GO bus a lot to and from school. Talked about all of the people that have been in and out of our lives at McDonald's with Pat and were one of the 1st people to try blueberry pies. Random photo shoot with Chantel and her new SLR camera. Jeremy's party with hot tubing and Pat passing out which all equalled to a really shitty taxi ride home with him. Halloween party with about 100 people that got busted at 11pm then walking around a part of Barrie I didn't know in high heels with Matt. Comeback Kid show in Toronto with Chantel and some other randos. Thought about dating a boy who gave too many excuses not to be with me. Was addicted to beef jerky for a short while. Found out I was moving to residence with Chantel and Kaitlin.

Random bar night with Pat where we saw a creepy Indian midget. Helped move Chantel into residence. Epic table falls demonstrated by Matt Graham at Amanda's party. Gotham Gala with Chantel where we took full advantage of the open bar. Finally moved into my residence room on R8 and had a party with all of my best friends in it. Found whatever ways I could to get down to Toronto for school more than once. Had a lot of computer trouble with my laptop. Spent a lot of time in Chantel's room playing guitar hero and met a lot of cool people on my floor. Random Tuesday night drinking on rez with Chantel and Kait. Many hard exams and eating at the Humber room with Chantel. Sketchy house party in Rexdale where I lost the button to my coat and was a really big slut.

Fucked up things with my crush, broke up with Matt G and became best friends and packed up and left residence for the holidays. Finished a crazy online exam for school and got glasses which I thought I'd wear more. Got lost in Owen sound at 2 in the morning with Pat and Katie. A lot of random driving with my 2 best friends as well as a failed attempt at death carpeting after it snowed a lot. Got drunk (or attempted) to downtown in Pat's car and became hair dressers with the my little pony toys at McDonald's. Kings night on boxing day with Pat, Katie, Ryan and Matt which included 2 and a half bottles of wine and some crying. Lots of shopping at the mall with Matt G and picking out new cloths for him.

Tomorrow is New Years Eve and I plan on getting really drunk with Chantel, Matt, Pat, Katie and a bunch of other people at Chantel's birthday party. Then in the morning at 7 I'm going to go work an 8 hour shift.


Saturday, December 27, 2008

My favorite part of playing kings:
Draw a ten: story time - The player to draw the ten starts the story with one to three words, (once upon a, billy has a, etc.) then the player to their left must recite the story adding one and ONLY 2 words. The first to mess up the story must drink!

"Once upon a time there was a boy who sat in water and peed everywhere, the end. Helga you cant finish the story now, you drink."


"Once upon a time there was a girl and she had an abortion everywhere, the end. Helga drinks."

Draw a jack: Categories - A beloved card at any Kings table, in this game the person to draw the Jack picks a category of their choice (types of beer, pro football teams, Tom Cruise movies, perfect squares, etc.) and after they start it off the game play goes as usual clockwise with each player naming a different thing from the category until someone takes to long or repeats one.

My personal favorite category "furniture stores"
me: rona

So there are pretty much three words to sum up last night, fuck you bastard!

Thursday, December 25, 2008

Fo Christmas I got about 120 dollars in gift cards from walmart which I know will make Matt happy because we both live at walmart, pjs, makeup that I have to return because I don't wear eyeliner, cute, pink, fuzzy slippers, socks, nose rings, grey leggings, b-spears cd and a hair straightener.

I even bought some gifts for myself because I can. I bought final fantasy rings of fate for my ds, a necklace with a stone on the end of it and a flask. ;)

I also got 250 cash.
Come shopping with me?

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

merry christmas

that is all.

Monday, December 22, 2008

i miss when we were perfect,
when we cuddled for the first time at the drive in,
when we'd drive around until 2 in the morning and smoke because we didn't give a fuck.

now everything we do is so fucked up, everything we talk about is fucked up and i don't know how to make this relationship work properly.

i hope you know that some of the things you say actually make me sick to my stomach.

Saturday, December 20, 2008

Stop the car and leave it running.
bad mistakes are waiting in the trunk
and I’m sure that I could take the money and run
and leave you like you’ve left me all along
but that’s not my style

Neopets and the lab ray are dirty.

I paid a million neopoints so that the lab ray can call my petpet pooper? How dare they.

Friday, December 19, 2008

My mom said I can't go out driving with my friends tonight because last time we did we ended up in Owen Sound, lost.

I'm going anyways.


Wednesday, December 17, 2008

Oh Rihanna! You've finally come out with a half decent song that I wont get sick of. Yes, I'm talking about rehab and what makes it better is that you chose to cast Justin Timberlake as your love interest in the music video or the reason you "checked into rehab". Sure JT looks hot in the video, it's too bad he only sings about 3 words thought the whole video and walks around aimlessly for the rest of it. This got me to thinking, JT and Rihanna would be such a weird, unexpected couple, no?

MMM steamehhh.

Nuf ranting and raving about celebs, this week is turning out pretty boring. I work tomorrow and Friday but that's about it.

By the way I love the All-American Rejects new song (L)(L)(L)

I have no life :D

Tuesday, December 16, 2008


TEN things you wish you could say to ten different people right now:

1. I don't miss our friendship at all.

2. I hate you so much but sometimes I miss you.

3. I'm going to miss us so much when everything has to change.

4. Since the day I met you, you were nothing but mean to me. I fucking hate your guts bitch.

5. Sometimes you make me feel like shit and you think it's okay

6. You are adorable. I hope I get to see you soon.

7. All I wanted was to trust you and be your friend but you fucked that up early on.

8. You are amazing and you deserve so much better.

9. Your friendship means a lot to me, I'm really glad I met you

10. Can we start over?

NINE things about yourself:

1. I like exrtra sauce on all the foods I eat.
2. I'm a very indecisive person.
3. I procrastinate until the very last minute and I most likely hand in all of my assignments late.
4. I'm terrified of sharks and wells.
5. I like long car rides and taking the bus.
6. I love old cameras and photography.
7. I take things way too seriously and sometimes can't take a joke.
8. I think too much about really insignificant stuff.
9. I like to convince myself that the things I do are right even though they are wrong.

EIGHT ways to win your heart:

1. Fall asleep with me.
2. Have deep conversations with me.
3. Give me cute kisses when I'm not expecting it.
4. Text me.
5. Hold my hand.
6. Party with me ;)
7. Call me.
8. I don't know. Just be yourself baby :)

SEVEN things that cross your mind a lot:

1. Why is life so hard?
2. Why is my mom such a bitch?
3. Why do I suck at school?
4. What time do I work?
5. I wonder what adventures await for me tommorow? HAHAH
6. What's for dinner?

SIX things you do before you fall asleep:

1. Go on the computer until I get really tired
2. Go to the washroom and get ready for bed
3. Put on my pjs or just wear a stripped down version of my outfit to bed
4. find piggy
5. put the guinea pigs downstairs
6. set my alarm and fall asleep

FIVE people of the opposite sex who mean a lot to you:

1. My dad
2. alexander
3. pat
4. matt g
5. my nonno

FOUR things you're wearing right now:

1. v neck
2. pj pants
3. bra
4. ring

THREE songs that you listen to often:

1. now that were done- metro station
2. Jesus Christ- brand new
3. pop bottles- birdman LOL

TWO things you want to do before you die:

1. get married
2. buy a house to grow old in

ONE confession:

1. i love you

Monday, December 15, 2008

It feels like I haven't blogged about anything remotely exiting in a while.
So here goes.
I'm home all fucking week with no school and McDonalds decides to only schedule me for one shift this week. ONE! Today when I work I'm going to tell them to call me in every day and I don't care what times! For all I care they can put me on a 7am to 10pm shift. AHH I hate being bored and needing money.ENDOFRANT.

In other news I don't really know if I have any other exiting plans other than working for the next few weeks. I'm definitely hanging out with Matt some time this week, possibly Katie and Pat again. Then on New years eve I'm going to Chantel's birthday party then movin' back to residence whenever she goes back. Woo fun times. Someone make random plans with me this week to go sledding or shopping or drinking or all 3? That would kinda make my life.

PS I got glasses and they look okay but I don't know how often I will be wearing them in public.

I look like a different person pretty much.

Saturday, December 13, 2008

baby baby,
goodnight and goodbye to you.
you will talk to me
but I sure won't talk to you.
baby baby,
goodnight and goodbye to you
you will come to see
maybe I was the one for you.

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

my christmas list or rather what i'm going to buy with my christmas money:

In every colour thnx.
cute flask

i tried this on last time i went to american apparel and i regret not getting it.
w/ lots of sheets of film thingys. bahaha

what christmas list isn't complete without a baby tapir? cumonnn.

but all i really want for christmas is you.

other random wantings

This exam was due December 10th at 4:00 PM
Talk about cutting it close.
I'm officially done school for this year.


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Tuesday, December 9, 2008

you still give me mad butterflies.
please stop.

I can't really go one day without my mom telling me I've gained weight.
It makes me wish I was strong enough to just not eat.

So starting tonight I'm not eating. I want to be skinny. I want my mom to stop calling me fat.

"You were the first person I met here, I'd kinda like to be the last person to say goodbye."
I was watching the OC today and it just so happened to be the episode where Marissa dies. I love the song they play in this clip.

As much as I didn't like Marissa's character is season 3 this is probably the saddest moment in TV drama history.

I miss yew Marissa Coopz :'(

Monday, December 8, 2008

So instead of doing my oh so important online exam I've been looking up tatoo ideas for what I want to get after the Christmas break all night.

This in between my boobs, maybe not with the Celtic design but I'll see.

This one means life and death. I don't know if I'd actually get it but I thought it was pretty.

This on my shoulder possibly. Or a different acorn design...there aren't really any decent ones.

Or one of these two on my shoulder with the words "alis volat propriis" meaning "she flies with her own wings" along the side of them.

Sunday, December 7, 2008

Today is my first shift at Mcdonalds in 2 weeks. They don't love me anymore :(
I can't wait to go on break and eat 5348352 snack wraps, crispy ranch please.
My ears are so sore because I shoved 10 gauge spacers in them and my old ones were like 16 gauge. Whatevz. They look cute.

I love mah bro.

Saturday, December 6, 2008

I wish I had the courage to say goodbye to you before I left.

Goodbyes are overrated.

I can actually say that for the first time in a long time I love life and for once it isn't because of a boy.
I'm so exited for Christmas break and the next year and next semester,
plus I'm a millionaire on neopets!
Well aren't I just a bundle of optimism today?

Friday, December 5, 2008

quiz plz?

I feel so free from the lies and all the secrets that I have been keeping these past three months.
I lost a boyfriend tonight but gained a best friend and probably a really fucked up relationship but oh well.

Party time next weekend.
Love you Matt G :D

I'm so glad everything is okay between us.

Lately my life has become like a cheap tv drama, oh god.

I'm in the mood for some demotivational posters...how bout you?


Jesus loves the ymca too?

Thursday, December 4, 2008

when i get bored i go into survey withdrawal
ya know you want to know more about me...NAWWT
1 - When was the last time you cried? 2 nights ago
2 - Have you ever faked sick? yes
3 - What was the last lie you said? your mom
4 - Have you ever cried during a movie? yes
5 - Who was the last person you couldn't take your eyes off of? myself
6 - Have you ever danced in the rain? yes
7 - Have you ever been drunk? oh god
8 - Have you ever tried tried drugs? yes
9 - Do you smoke? sometimes
10 - What's the farthest you've ever gone on a dare? idk
11 - What is your full name? helga alexandra napolitano
12 - What is your blood-type? b -
13 - Have you ever been in a car accident? no
14 - How old were you when you received your first kiss? 15
15 - Who was your first kiss? ew
16 - Have you ever had an online relationship? no
17 - Have you ever had phone-sex? maybe
18 - Have you ever been rejected by a crush? yes
19 - What is your favourite sport to play? none
20 - Have you ever made a prank phone call? hahahahahha tons
21 - Have you ever said? fuck you?
22 - What's your favourite childhood memory? riding on the back of the dog like it was a pony
23 - Is there anything that you have done that you regret? oh yeah
24 - What do you want to be when you grow up? i want to be famous i want to be a star i want to be in movies. obv
25 - What is your political persuasion? none
26 - Have you ever had cybersex? no
27 - Do you believe in g-d? i don't know yet
28 - Do you believe in love at first sight? yes
29 - Do you believe in karma? no
30 - Who was your first crush? oh ma gawd i can't remember
31 - Who do you have a crush on? matt
32 - How would you describe yourself? helga
33 - What are you afraid of? sharks
34 - Are you religious? not in the slightest
35 - What does your screen name mean? fuck you
36 - What person do you trust the most? my mom
37 - Who was your first boyfriend/girlfriend? scott
38 - What is the best compliment you have ever received? i don't know
39 - What is the meanest thing anyone has said about you? idk
40 - What is the longest crush/relationship you have had? 2 years
41 - What is your greatest strength? i don't think I have any
42 - What is your greatest weakness? temptation
43 - What is your perfect pizza? Hawaiian
44 - What is your first thought when waking up in the morning? ahh fuck i'm tired
45 - What is your first thought before you go to bed? ahh fuck i'm tired and i can't fall asleep
46 - What college do you want to go to? I'm in university so fuck you
47 - Do you get along with your family? sometimes
48 - Do you play any instruments? used to
49 - What kind of music do you like? sick beats
50 - Do you think you're attractive? no
51 - Would you ever get a tattoo? yes
52 - How many piercings do you have? 3
53 - Who makes you laugh? everything
54 - Who would you want to be tied to for 24hours? my cat
55 - Have you ever seen a dead body? no
56 - Do you have a celebrity crush? um joe jonas plz
57 - What is one thing scientists should invent? a cure for cancer...any time...
58 - Have you ever broken a bone? no
59 - What happens after you die? you are dead
60 - Do you watch or read the news? no
61 - What stereotype would you label yourself as being? shy?
62 - Would your friends agree with that stereotypic label? idk
63 - If yo could change your name, what would you change it to? Alexandra
64 - If you could go back in time to one point in your life, where would you go? no where. everything in my life has happened for a reason
65 - If you could change anything about yourself, what would you change? my appearance obv
66 - Have you ever gone skinny dipping? someday
67 - Have you ever played strip poker? someday
68 - Would you ever lie to someone to make them feel good about themselves? yes
69 - What do you want your friends to think about you? that i'm a good friend
70 - Whats the biggest argument you've ever gotten into? i dont know
71 - HAve you ever bitten someone? ouuu yes
72 - When's your birthday? april 10
73 - Have you ever stolen anything? i tried to once but chickened out
74 - Do you make wishes on shooting stars? yes :D
75 - Whats the most you've ever eaten in one sitting? oh god....
76 - If you could go back and change one day, what would it be? last Friday
77 - Do you remember your dreams? yes
78 - Have you ever been in love? yes :(
79 - Are you a morning person or a night person? night
80 - Do you have any phobias? fear of sharks, bees, wells
81 - What's the meanest thing you've ever done to someone? I'd rather not disclose that information
82 - Have you ever been to the hospital (other then birth? no
83 - How many screen names do you have? one?
84 - Do any medical problems run in your family? idk
85 - Have anyone ever been disowned from your family? they always say they are going to but it never happens
86 - Have you ever had a nightmare? haha obv not
87 - Do you say meaner things to your friends or your enemies? enemies
88 - Would you ever participate in a threesome? nononono
89 - Would you ever pay for a prostitute? no
90 - Have you ever mooned or flashed someone? not intentionally
91 - Have you ever cheated on your bf/gf? yes
92 - Have you ever laughed so hard you peed in your pants? yes. one day at the park..oh good times
93 - Have you ever written a love letter? yes
94 - Have you ever attempted suicide? no
95 - Do you prefer boxers or briefs? boxers
96 - Have you ever been in a fistfight? no
97 - Do you have any hidden talents? being the biggest bitch in the world
98 - What is one thing you want me to know about you? nothing...WHO ARE YOU??
99 - What is one question you wouldn't want me to ask? WHO ARE YOU?
100 - Do you usually prefer books or movies? movies
101 - Who is your favourite person to talk to? my mom
102 - Who is always able to cheer you up when you're sad? ma frans
103 - Would you ever have sex before marriage? yes
104 - Who do you talk to most on the phone? no one
105 - Do you have a secret that you're ashamed of? yes
106 - Do you prefer British or American spelling of words? neither...i like to spell words the way i want
107 - Have you ever gotten detention? yes
108 - How do you vent your anger? writing, talking about it.
109 - Have you ever been on a diet? hahahah impossible for me
110 - Would you ever date someone younger than you? Older than you? both
111 - Is your best friend a virgin? no
112 - What's a rumor someone has spread about you? that i wanted to have a threesome with my boyfriend and some guy at work. wooo
113 - What's the kinkiest thing you could ever actually see yourself as doing? I'm not really into any "kinky" business
114 - What's the meanest thing anyone has ever done to you? i don't know
115 - What's the nicest thing anyone has ever done for you? idk
116 - Have you ever been diagnosed with a mental illness? not yet
117 - Have you ever cut yourself on purpose? no
118 - Have you ever wanted to murder someone? yes
119 - Have you ever hated someone? yes
120 - Do you prefer talking on the phone or online? phone
121 - Do you consider yourself popular? no
122 - Would you ever tell the person you have a crush on that you like them? if i was drunk
123 - Have you ever had a crush on an enemy? wtf? no
124 - Have you ever had a crush on a best friend? yes
125 - What is your favourite book? none
126 - Do you have a collection of anything? empty bottles of booze in my rez room. haha
127 - Are you happy with the person you are becoming? NONONONONO
128 - Are you a different person now then you were 5 years ago? yes
129 - What do you see yourself as being in 5 years from now? i don't want to think about it
130 - Are you happy with the life you have? kinda

There are a lot of yeses in hurrr
1 - Are You Single? no
2 - If not, who is your bf/gf? matt g
3 - How Long Have You Been Together? 4 months
4 - If You're Single, Do you Like It?
5 - Do You Have a Crush On Anyone Right Now? yes
6 - First Kiss? scott
7 - Ever Kiss in the Rain? yes
8 - In a Movie Theater? yes
9 - Underwater? yes
10 - First Love ? likes diapers
11 - Have you ever Cheated on Anyone? yes
12 - Been Cheated on? yes
13 - Used Someone? yes
14 - Been used? i hope not
15 - Lied to your bf/gf? yes
16 - Ever Made out With Just a Friend? yes
17 - Ever Had Sex With Just a Friend? no
18 - Are You a Tease? yes
19 - Do you Flirt a Lot? yes
20 - Longest Relationship ? 2 years on and off
21 - Shortest ? well this one i guess
22 - Have you Ever Gotten a Poem? yes. i burned it
23 - Ever Get Flowers? yes
24 - Sweetest Thing You've Ever Gotten? i don't care
25 - Do you Like Valentine's Day or Sweetest Day? wtf is sweetest day?
26 - Do you Believe in Love at First Sight? YES;D
27 - Do you Believe in? obv not
28 - Do you Fall in Love Fast? no
29 - Are you a Player? yes
30 - Would you ever Hook Up With Someone of the Same sex? if they were goodlookin' and i was drunk
31 - Have You ever Kissed 2 People in One Day? yes
32 - Kissed 2 People At One Time? no
33 - Had Sex with 2 People in One day? no
34 - Had sex with 2+ People at One Time? no
35 - Ever cried over someone of the opposite sex? yes
36 - Ever Been Dumped? yes
37 - Ever dumped someone? yes
38 - Ever been rejected? yes
39 - Do you have a lot of ex's? no
40 - Are you a slut? yes
41 - Ever been called one? yes
42 - Ever dated someone more than once? yes
43 - Do you ever make the first move? sometimes
44 - Double dates or single? single
45 - Do you want to get married? yes

I wish I could just learn wrong from right without making the mistakes or fucking things up.

I feel so embarrassed that I acted the way I did to someone who I realized I actually care about.
I hope things will be better after the Christmas break, I hope I will be better after the Christmas break.

New years resolutions anyone?

I have been lacking internet for the past 4 days and I have been going crazy to say the least.
So I decided to come down to my university for the soul purpose of using the internet (and fixing my classes for next semester).
Yesterday I went with my 2 best friends to go get tattoos which made me want to get mine more and I also want to get my frownie pierced, too bad I have no money.
Christmas break is coming up and I want to be working for every second of it. I figure that I can make about 1400$ this Christmas season.

So that's pretty much all I wanted to say, I was going to write a blog bitching about certain people but I've realized that they aren't worth it.

Cool, bye.

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

You said you wanted me to be happy.
Well I'm not happy.
Fuck you.