This week taught me to re consider who my friends are and not to trust people too easily.

Not going out to everything your friends do is part of growing up and being independent and I shouldn't feel upset because people I love are having a good time without me.

In other news I bought the 2 dresses I am wearing for the wedding on the 14th of July

This is the one I am wearing to the church

 

and heres the one I am wearing to the reception

 

if something good doesn't happen soon I'm going to start to burn every bridge I have. See yah.

life is still "bleh" I work 30 hours a week and I'm sitting here alone eating tuna and looking for a coffee bean grinder. Yesterday I took my boyfriend up the CN tower FOR FREE cause I work there.  

 and this is all I have to say to everyone in my life on this bleak monday night 

So today was a really fucking shit day. First off I'm not feeling well because my throat hurts and my nose constantly runs. It is hard for me to talk and talking at work ALL THE TIME doesn't help. I didn't get much sleep because I decided to visit my boyfriend last night which means I had to get up early to head back to toronto so he could go to work today. ANYWAYS my 2 ex roommates who are also my close friends have been talking about going to african lion safari together for 2 years. So today they both went because someone invited them to and they never even invited me because I told one of my friends I was working today. NOT EVEN A FUCKING INVITE TO SEE IF I COULD GET MY SHIFT COVERED OR ANYTHING. Then I get to see all their little photos of their adventure posted on facebook and twitter like rub it in more thhhhaaaanks. Oh and everyone gets to go out tonight and have fun while I get to work till 11 and battle crowds of drunk people just to get to the subway. haha MUST BE NICE to be able to drink with your friends on weekends MUST BE FUCKING NICE. I guess I'm just feeling a whole lot of left out cause I have a job that demands I work a lot of hours. The cherry on top of the shit cake that today was, was the fact that they don't serve soup anymore in the cafeteria at work they only serve shit junk food which is super cool cause I don't eat any of that stuff. So i hope everyone has a grad fucking ol time getting wasted tonight and doing stupid shit I'm just going to sit here in my old lady pjs and go to bed sober night fuck faces :)

I Just

want to be alone. I want to have my own apartment, go to work and see my boyfriend and family. Everyone else is pissing me off. You're all full of shit and secrets and I hate the feeling of being forgotten. I don't feel cared about I don't know I just want to sit here and cry in this fucking apartment that isn't mine.

Today

I went to visit my grandmother and then did some (window) shopping cause I'm poor as heck. I found these at topshop and I've never wanted a pair of shoes more in my life

Topshop sandals

I also would like this top I mean since I tried it on already. I spent a measly 13 dollars on this beautiful one piece I plan to wear for pride parade next weekend

Home on a Friday night AGAIN just because I have to work at 11 am tomorrow and after work I get to party with all my best friends.
So I guess staying in tonight with my video game and my coffee is ok sort of but not because I get to read about how much fun everyone else is having on all the social media sites I'm on.
Coffee, internet, hyper, blogs weeeee.

I went to the 9 gala at a lounge on Danforth to shoot the event for BOLD magazine but they treated us like poop and not like media personnel so we left early.
Anyways I got all dressed up and stuff.

I went shopping after and decided I wanted to buy a new video game instead of clothes I don't need. Wee.

Sorry for never writing

I'm working about 40 hours a week at the see en tower (because I can't blog or tweet about it or I'll get in trouble hehehe)
Shooting a couple of events of the side for BOLD magazine and on my days off I see my lovely boyfriend.

We've been dating for a month and that's a big deal for me. I'm happy. Happier than I would be fucking random dudes that don't give a shit about me all summer.

I'm still living at Davisville for the most part with David which is cool because I buy him things instead of paying for rent (well I give him 50 bucks every paycheck but whatever)

So basically life is pretty hectic and I barely have any time to see my friends except David but I'm trying to make time and stuff.

Anyways that is all for now, I cant imagine any blogs in the near future being much different than this one.

Ok bye.

I'm still getting shit on because of something that happened 4 months ago. I'm losing friends because of it. I'm feeling like a piece of shit because of it. I'm angrier more often because of it.

Fuck all of my "friends" I don't give a shit about you. Just like you don't give a shit about me because I made one mistake.

All I need is myself and my family you can all go fuck yourselves because you aren't real friends.
And to David I feel like a burden because I'm always at his house cause I have no where to live because my job is in downtown Toronto (because I have a job unlike some people, must be fucking nice.)

I'm upset I want to vomit because you all suck so fucking hard.

So yeah everyone is stressing me out so you are all ousted out of my life good bye. xoxox