HELGA

Never mind. Anonymous can never comment on this blog ever again no matter what.

I can't believe you actually wasted your time and made an account. HAHAHAHA

Buh byee :)

It's sad, I'm not excited to go back to school AT ALL. I'm loving Barrie too much right now to want to leave, I have no clue why.
A lot of people I know are going away to university for the first time and are excited beyond belief. It makes me regret how I started out university last year a lot and I wish I could just do it over again. Even the fact that moving to Toronto last year changed me into a different person scares me, I don't ever want to be that person again.

I feel like I should just drop out but I can't because then I'd feel like I just wasted a whole fucking year of my life.

i would have a fear of opinions

I have a lot of retarded phobias, this is one of them, fml.

Allodoxaphobia is also known as:

* The fear of opinions
* Opinion phobia
* The fear of confrontation
* The fear of arguments

I actually think something is wrong with me.
I slept or 10 hours last night and I'm still tired and I've been having stomach problems for the past 4 days.

On Sunday I have to pretend to go to work for 6 hours because I'm not telling my mom I'm suspended.
I'm wearing a lot of black tonight, I looks like I'm going to a funeral, a very sexy funeral.

I had a dream last night that I was riding a giant green tiger named treasure, it was the best dream ever because me and the tiger were bffs.
That's why you don't drink before bedtime.

So today I got pulled into the managers office at work. It's like one of those times when you know you're in trouble but a little part of you is hoping that the manager will be like "don't act so scared! We are promoting you, GOOD JOB! :D"

But no, shit like that doesn't happen to me. Instead I got suspended from work for eating all the time in drive thru.

Fuck, JUST FUCK.

Why do I insist on writing blogs when I'm drunk?
I'm only keeping it up because it's funny.

Don't ask about my crush.

drunken blogs r ma lyfe

OH HEY I'M DRUNK, NOT THAT I NEED TO TELL YOU THAT. BUT I DIIIIIID! O HEY!

I have major secret crush that gives me mad butterflies which sucks hardcore and no one can ever know who it is.
I don't even have him on facebook. Ahaha I suck at liiife. Fuck crushes and fuck ones I can't tell anyone about even more.

But WHAtevrezzzz

Tonightttt:

aids germs

My mom is pretty much the biggest retard of life. I told her that I've been having pains in my stomach for the last 2 days and she said "maybe you shouldn't drink so much and take care of yourself, or maybe you have swine flu..."
Yes, that's exactly it mom, you're so fucking smart.THANKS! I'll go get tested for swine flu right away!

She claims that I am a worse child than my brother who smokes pot in the house and was growing some BESIDE the house, but you know, that's fine. YAYY POT! Not like it's illegal or anything. Oh and according to her I'm a pot head too. LOLOLOL sorry, haven't smoked up in months but why would she believe me? I'm the worst kid in all of history, didn't you know?

The BEST was "Don't drink my drink with your aids germs!" Come again? Aids germs? AIDS GERMS? AHHAHA oh fuck. Sorry last time I checked you have had to have sex to have aids or it has to be genetically passed down so if you aren't HIV positive bitch neither am I. Why do words come out of your mouth? Oh I forgot, because my best friend is gay I must automatically have aids. Luvvvin your logic there.

Nothing to blog about.
My mom's bitching, I'm hungry, what else is new?
HONESTLY.
I picked up a lot of shifts this week.

Shake that thing miss

My saturday night

bathtub d8


i'm obv rly attractive, k?

if we could party all night

Such a GOOD night. I love Chantel, Amanda and veggie dogs, they make my life
I'm such a good drunk right now, so stoked for tomorrow.

since you've gone away things don't seem like they used to be between you and me

Weekend plans
Tomorrow: McDonald's reunion dinner with Matt, gym, swimming, bar with Amanda who I've been missing a lot.
Saturday: Work then hot tubing with Katie at Jenna's (YAY because I bought a new bathing suit today!)
Sunday: Drive down to Toronto to attend 2 fathers day family gatherings.

BUSYBUSY WEEKEND, it's going to be a lot better then last weekend.

I FEEL FREE

An uneeded, detailed list of what I do on all my days off

wake up really late
feed my animals
eat brunch while watching playhouse disney/recess/kim possible/the weekenders
play gameboy while watching video flow on much music
surf the web
clean up the house before my mom gets home
eat dinner
watch one tree hill
go for a run
more web surfing
watch a movie in bed
sleep

REPEAT UNLESS WORKING NEXT DAY

I want to go to the beach so badly right now. Why isn't it sunny? WHY? I want to get some sort of colour on my pale ass.

This weekend a lot of good stuff happened along with a lot of bad stuff but I kinda wish it didn't turn out the way it did.
I want this summer to be as good as the last one, please?

I love when people just assume things about me,
for instance:
"maybe you'd get boys at the bar if you weren't always with Matt"

Fuck you, I don't go to the bar to get boys.
Don't even talk like you know me or what I want.

My eyes are still puffy from crying, I'm not even sure I have a legitimate reason for crying so much other than feeling sorry for myself.

I wish I knew how to stop.

feelfeelfeel

I have a feeling that tomorrow night just isn't going to go my way.
Stuff like that never does.

fill up my cup, let's get fucked up

Tomorrow: Work 12-6, then going to see some local bands with Katie and Chantel.
Friday: Work 9-5 then bar with Matt and Andrew which is kind of awkward because Matt is the designated driver...hopefully more people I know show up.
Saturday: TBA, definitely going running with Matt, oh and I plan on being very hung over ;)

You could be another disappointment
on my long road of disappointments.
I guess I'll never know.
Guess I should let this go.


Maybe I should stop before I even try to start this shit again.

I really can't even think of anything to write, today was boring and I must blog to fill the void of it's uneventfulness.

I hear the commercial for Wendy's frosty shakes, I want one.

want

I need new video games.

tonight

done some shots and went to the bar across the street, how convenient.

shoulda gone to the queens, fml.

next weekend better be epic as shit.

shitwrecked


***edited just for you matty

I was bored so I was creeping my old myspace account and it made me depressed because pretty much everyone that I have comments left from arn't in my life anymore.

Stupid comments like this make me sad:
"Hey, one day, lets pack up and move, well least take a trip to California. Road trip, I'll drive my dads mustang with the roof off and we could ride down, stay there for a week, and we do whatever you want to do! Yeah, sounds like a good time. Can't wait to. Lets be spontaneous, we're cool like that =) ♥"

What a boring Friday night, let's reminisce and maybe one day I'll actually road trip to California with a cute boy in a mustang with the roof off.

see it's friday night and i jusss got paid

These past 24 hours have been pretty amazing, well for a Thursday afternoon and a Friday morning.
Yesterday I got to work with my 2 best friends then I went to walmart to pick up some new work shoes.
Then Matt and I went to the lcbo to buy coolers to drink at the movies then went to go see UP which was cute as hell. There I found out that I really enjoy mudslide vodka coolers a lot and blueberry woodys tastes like clouds according to Matt.

After the movie we got free food at Mcdoanlds because of the amazing people that work overnights, went back to Matt's house and watched Elf while doing shots of coolers then danced to the music on Matt's itunes. Matt had a play list of crying songs which kinda made my life as well.

This morning we went to Stitches where I bought some cowboy boots and 2 purses because my purse broke 2 days ago. Later, bought the most delicious veggie sub and a ball for my hamster to play in. I have to stop spending money. I picked up a shift tomorrow and I have a crush.

Don't ask because I'm not telling ;)

So I officially have nothing to do this weekend. Matt is working Friday night and I can no longer venture to Oakville on Saturday. Me and Matt are going to go to an Irish pub tonight because it's across from my house but I don't really feel like pubbing it up on a Thursday night.

I'd rather just go running, watch one tree hill and play video games.

So someone make plans with me this weekend because it's not like I'm working or anything and I just got paiiiidddd ;)

Scratches all down my back to keep me right on

I ran a straight 30 minutes to crazy bitch by buckcherry today which makes no sense because I'm definitely not a crazy bitch unless I'm very intoxicated.

LUVV THAT SONG.

Anyways I have no clue what I'm up to this Friday but I hope I'm going to the gay bar with Matt and Adam.

I want to take my web piercing out because its so fucking dirty and I can't clean it because it is ever so hard to reach.

Maybe I'll put it back in when it's clean or when I get another ring.

I picked up a shift today for Matty G on drive thru so it better be a fun shift or I'll be quite disappointed. That is all.

She said it's love but I didn't give a fuck

so good :D