repeat after me

It's sad, I'm not excited to go back to school AT ALL. I'm loving Barrie too much right now to want to leave, I have no clue why.
A lot of people I know are going away to university for the first time and are excited beyond belief. It makes me regret how I started out university last year a lot and I wish I could just do it over again. Even the fact that moving to Toronto last year changed me into a different person scares me, I don't ever want to be that person again.

I feel like I should just drop out but I can't because then I'd feel like I just wasted a whole fucking year of my life.