i get to go to Jamaica and forget about everything and everyone back in Canada for 6 whole days.
so
fucking
perfect.
have fun freezing ur bums off here lol
and my answer is always “I don’t know” because I don’t fucking know but it’s ok because now I have someone who treats me amazing. : ‘3
don't want to fuck up something that will be good for me because I cant make up my mind. Why is it so hard? either I can be happy with someone amazing and sweet or be miserable wanting someone I can never have. Your call Helga. But I guess I kind of already know what I'm going to choose.
“For the past while my mind set is “whats wrong with you, why would anyone want you, you’re ugly.”
Thats how everyone makes me feel.
I’m at the point where I wont even make a move on a guy if I’m drunk.
Everyone wants one of my friends but never me and when someone did want me I tried to take it slow but he only thought I wanted to be friends because of it.”
no wonder im a fucked up slut now.
Tomorrow: laundry, maybe visit nona, work 4-10
Wednesday: Kyle comes (TBA plans)
Thursday: Last pub at humber
Friday: Meet with BOLD magazine. Go to boston pizza with co workers and kyle and drink a fish bowl then TBA
Saturday: My birthday party
Sunday: Cuddle all day
reading all my old blog posts from 2 months ago makes me want to cry.
i'm just that good of a writer.
or i kinda just want to go back in time, give my self a hug and tell me that everything is only going to go uphill from there.
So I quit McDonalds on my birthday and I start work at the CN tower at the 360 restaurant on Sunday and I get to wear a tie how chic.
I also got the internship for BOLD magazine to do event photography for them but since I have a full time job in the summer I have no clue if I'm going to have time to do it.
I get to see this cute boy on Wednesday which I'm excited about because he actually cares about me unlike all these other guys who are just out for a fuck. Not that I'm not aware or basically out to do the same thing but it's just nice to have someone that doesn't just like you for your vagina.
I also have a friend who I am very attached to but the more I learn things about them the more I question our friendship. IDK they are prob gonna read this and think I'm fucked but oh well so are they.
Uhmmm so that's my life as of now. I guess that's cool.
today I had my second interview to work as a photographer at the CN tower and two hour after the interview they told me I got the job and I’m so happy. Happier than I’ve been for anything in a while.
Tomorrow is my 22nd birthday and I’m finally handing in my 2 weeks to quit mcdonalds and start a new life basically. And so ends my 4 year rein at Mcdonalds as drive thru queen. I’m going to miss everyone that works with me but not the customers.
So Wednesday is my orientation at the CN tower and I’m the happiest girl in the world bye bye.
Monday: Class, goodbye lunch for the photo students, get drunk I suppose, workout.
Tuesday: Work, class,work on Ryerson assignments, movies.
Wednesday: Interview for magazine internship, lunch with David, shopping, Interview at the CN tower, bbq party at my house, pub.
Thursday: Work, pub with Daviko, drunk.
Friday:Finish all outstanding Ryerson assignments.
Saturday: Class, work.
Sunday: Work.
and after Sunday 2 days till my birthday and 7 till I get the see the cutest boy and stuff.
YE.
