Is my life fa real right now?
Some guy that broke my fucking heart last year comes on facebook chat and says "I wish we kept dating you are super cute and a genuinely good person." then "Have you found a good boy?"
WHAT?
I'm too high for this right now.
He's probably drunk...like who says things like this?
We weren't even dating though... what even? :(

I was jumping on my bed

spraying air freshener into the air and eating a hotdog when I hit my head on my light and it smashed and cut my leg.

Fun story for you all tonight. Bye

I have a sort of first hangout with a boy tomorrow

too bad I already sort of slept with him lol for being a slut.

I don't know how I feel about this AT ALL.

My life

I like it when I listen to songs that used to make my heart break and cry my eyes out but now have no such affect.
I'm so much fucking stronger than I was 2 years ago. I wont ever let a boy make me feel like I'm not worth it to the point of depression ever again.

The moment when you think someone is hot but then they ruin it by being a huge fucking retard...
Yeah, this is my life.

I'm finally starting to get comfortable with me body. I can't wait till summer to show it off :)

I both love and hate the person I'm becoming.

I got paid 400 dollars, had to pay 120 to my visa and put aside 200 for rent.
I have 75 dollars plus birthday money to spend until next pay day. Living the poor life awwwwe yeah.

My life is so sad. Instead of doing homework I'm trying to find the guy I hooked up with on my birthday on facebook to make sure he isn't ugly.
Thank the lord. He's not.

Bad things about last night
Someone broke a coffee pot in my house and didn't clean it up
Someone toilet papered my room
A lot of people that said they were coming to my party didn't come
Got no birthday cuddles
Cried in front of my friends
Cried myself to sleep
Good things that happened
Got 10 dollars
My friends were amazing
No decorations got torn down

OH HAPPY DAY. Fuck.

I want to move away to another country where I don't know anyone.

I think I'm going to drink myself into a coma tonight. Come with?

And yet every single fucking one of you has the nerve to tell me that I can do better. I can do better I can do better I can do better I can do better I can do better I can do better I can do better. That's all I ever fucking hear. So please OH FUCKING PLEASE why don't you tell me why I never do better. Please just solve this mystery for me. Or you know...you can stop getting my hopes up and stop telling me that I can do better BECAUSE I CLEARLY FUCKING CAN'T.

I'm an ugly piece of shit that no one wants.
I can't stop crying.
There's nothing I can do to make this better. I thought there was but there isn't.I thought there was but there isn't.I thought there was but there isn't.I thought there was but there isn't.I thought there was but there isn't.I thought there was but there isn't.I thought there was but there isn't.I thought there was but there isn't.I thought there was but there isn't.I thought there was but there isn't.I thought there was but there isn't.I thought there was but there isn't.I thought there was but there isn't.I thought there was but there isn't.I thought there was but there isn't.I thought there was but there isn't.I thought there was but there isn't.I thought there was but there isn't.I thought there was but there isn't.I thought there was but there isn't.I thought there was but there isn't.I thought there was but there isn't.I thought there was but there isn't.I thought there was but there isn't.I thought there was but there isn't.
Fuck every one
LOL FUCK BIRTHDAYS WHAT A MOTHER FUCKING JOKE FDSJUFBKLCNJVBERYDFWEBHJNNNNTSFJKGID YUX8M YUGB

I fall for people way too easily even when everything about them is wrong for me.
The boy I'm a little bit interested in is coming to my birthday party today so I hope that doesn't end up fucking my night over.
But EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE today is going to be the best day of my entire year. I WANT IT TO BE 9 O CLOCK SO I CAN DRINK TILL FOREVER.

And I'm paralyzed from you
From the lips down
And all the way down

Taking summer applications now

It's all blurred out aye bitch I can't see ya
It's all blurred out aye bitch I can't see ya
It's all blurred out aye bitch I can't see ya
Turnin' shit around, maybe I should leave ya

I'm the most excited about my birthday party as I have been about something in a long time.
Hopefully the night will consist of:

• cupcakes
• birthday shots / birthday alcohol
• balloons
• birthday hugs
• singing happy birthday
• beer pong
• good friends
• flip cup
• beer funneling
• loud music
• dancing
• flirting
• lots of picture taking
• loud singing
• cigarette smoking
• chugging contests
• never have I evers
• bed time cuddles
  

CAN'T WAIT CAN'T WAIT CAN'T WAIT CAN'T WAIT CAN'T WAIT

I don't do homework as often as I should.
I don't clean my room as often as I should.
I don't eat as often as I should.
I don't shower as often as I should.
I don't go to class as often as I should.
I basically don't do anything I should be doing as often as I should cause I'm a lazy hoe.
I'm basically blaming my laziness on the fact that my birthday is this weekend which is stressing me out.
I wish I wouldn't do things like this.
I'm seriously going to go get all of my homework done today. Fuck procrastinating Helga. Rot in hell, bitch.

I have to stop getting with first years. It makes me feel weird and creepy because first year for me was so long ago. I'm such a pedophile. 1992 boys forevz ♥

10 secrets
09 loves
08 fears
07 wants
06 places
05 foods
04 books
03 films
02 songs
01 picture of yourself

1.Egypt
2.London
3.Russia
4.Jamaica
5.Toronto
6.Australia

If there is a actually a NORMAL NORMAL NORMAL guy that existed in the world....let this be your invitation to my birthday party next weekend.
Ps-be tall and skinny.