I just realized I'd never meet / re-meet any cute boys if I didn't drink because I'm too shy sober.
Luv ya booze.

I really, really dislike how awkward I am with guys.
I need to stop.

I have nothing to blog about.
I spent farrrr too much money on lingerie the other day which probably wasn't necessary but
hey
;)
My life is just me going to work work work.
I have the weekend off this week which is amazing and I have sick plans too.
Parties and weddings, should be fun.

I haven't wrote a drunk blog in a long time.
So hi.
I don't want to work tomorrow.
I love Matt, Katie, Chantel, Amanda...etc.

OH wait I have nothing left to say. Bye.

boy was wrong
was wrong in every cast
was always told that make up
would make things last
boy would feel
would feel like strange
boneless
this town is all in hell
you know
you would always run
from here

I don't know how to express what I'm feeling in words but I'm going to try.

You can change yourself as many times as you want but sometimes it feels like it's never enough. The person you want to notice you never will and there's nothing you can do about it. There's always someone with something more than you and you can't figure out what you are doing wrong or how to change it.

And what if you just keep meeting people that don't give a fuck about you? What if those are the only type of people you ever meet? Like you don't ever have what they are looking for. I'm speaking boy wise of course.

I don't want to meet anymore boys, I'm going to try even less than I do now if that is even possible.

I try to act like it doesn't bother me but it does. It does so fucking much.

Hi.
I love life.
I love my friends, especially Matt.
Not tied down and I adore it.
I'm probably only really interested in one boy but not in a way that I'd let it consume me like it usually does.
I really don't even care if anything happens between us. Stress free, I fucking love not giving a shit about guys.