I'm happy

today but that just might be the coffee. Maybe not. I have so many on and off day's it's scary but I feel like alcohol plays a part in the reason I feel like shit some days and not others. I'm going to try to cut that out of my life for the most part. It's going to be hard but I feel like part of the reason I drank was to meet boys and I kinda have a stupid ass crush on someone which I shouldn't so whatever. I'm sitting in class, learning about grad school and I want to drown myself in my coffee.