I'm always so tired but I can never bring myself to go to sleep, ever.
As soon as I move into my house on Saturday I swear I'll write blogs that aren't just me complaining.

I'm going to be too busy to pack to move to Toronto cause I'm working all week.
Shit.

Wow

and like, fuck you.

yesterday @ wonderland
love the waterpark, hate spinning rides

if we did it all again, would we really change or only stray?

I hate the way I look
ALL
THE
TIME

I just left work half hour ago and I have to go back in 8 hours. I'm so exhausted.
I'm sick of working.

I love this girl and I can't wait to move into a house with her in the fallllll. WEEEE!

Hi

Bold what applies to you.

Things I Love:

1. Cats

2. Chai Tea.

3. Green Tea.

4. Texting.

5. Movies.

6. Music.

7. Rockband.

8. TV or DVD.

9. No School.

10. Recycling.

11. Snow.

12. Reading.

13. Writing.

14. Poetry.

15. Novels.

16. Singing in the car.

17. Sun Chips.

18. Hiking.

19. Biking.

20. Water.

21. iPod.

22. Surveys.

23. Facebook.

24. Friends.

25. Family.

Things I Hate:

1. Spiders.

2. Jerks.

3. Conceited people.

4. People in general.

5. Not being listened to.

6. People who abuse animals.

7. Cleaning.

8. Waking Up.

9. Drugs.

10. Smoking.

11. Cancer.

12. Hot weather.

13. My dad.

14. Worrying too much.

15. Anxiety.

16. Awful teachers/professors.

17. School.

18. Math.

19. Being too hot.

20. Heels.

21. Glee.

22. Lady Gaga.

23. Feet.

24. Runny noses.

25. Being sick.

Movies I Love:

1. V For Vendetta.

2. Star Trek.

3. Lord of the Rings.

4. Harry Potter.

5. Sleeping Beauty.

6. Boondock Saints.

7. New Moon.

8. Alice in Wonderland.

9. The Dark Knight.

10. Juno.

11. Sweeney Todd.

12. Walk The Line.

13. Across the Universe.

14. Four Brothers.

15. Eternal Sunshine.

16. Dead Poets Society.

17. Transformers.

19. Moulin Rouge.

20. Back To The Future.

21. Aladdin.

22. Saving Private Ryan.

23. Edward Scissorhands.

24. Mary Poppins.

25. Queen of the Damned.

Good Looking Famous Males:

1. Johnny Depp.

2. Robert Pattinson.

3. Taylor Lautner.

4. Ryan Reynolds.

5. Jared Leto.

6. Alexander Skarsgard.

7. Josh Holloway.

8. Hugh Jackman.

9. Ed Westwick.

10. Chace Crawford.

11. Chris Pine.

12. Jim Sturgess.

13. Zachary Quinto.

14. Ewan McGregor.

15. Patrick Dempsey.

16. Brandon Flowers.

17. David Cook.

18. Chris Daughtry.

19. Jake Gyllenhaal.

20. John Krasinski.

21. Christian Bale.

22. Edward Norton.

23. Justin Timberlake.

24. Ryan Gosling.

25. Ben Barnes.

26. Joe Jonas

27. Kevin Jonas.

28. Nick Jonas.

29. Danny Jones.

30. Dougie Poynter.

31. Tom Fletcher.

32. Harry Judd.

33. Logan Lerman.

34. Alex Pettyfer.

35. Aaron Johnson.

36. Nick Hoult.

37. Luke Pasqualino.

Bands/Singers I LIKE:

1. The Beatles.

2. Muse.

3. The Killers.

4. The Fray.

5. Taylor Swift.

6. Katy Perry.

7. Eyes Set To Kill.

8. Adam Lambert.

9. Demi Lovato.

10. Colbie Caillat.

11. Paramore.

12. Ingrid Michaelson.

13. Taking Back Sunday.

14. 30 Seconds To Mars.

15. Leona Lewis.

16. The Hives.

17. John Lennon.

18. Panic! At The Disco.

19. Miley Cyrus.

20. Mute Math.

21. Alesana.

22. Blessthefall.

23. Pete Yorn.

24. Cobra Starship.

25. Modest Mouse.

26. Fall Out Boy.

27. Mcfly.

28. Rascal Flatts.

29. Josh Turner.

30. George Strait.

31. Kenny Chesney.

32. Usher.

33. All-American Rejects.

34. Kaiser Chiefs.

I am a shaky, sweaty, rambling nervous wreck.
I can't help it. I would if I could & trust me I FUCKING WISH I COULD.

So pretty much I'm being used.
This kinda makes me sad but at this point I don't give a fuck anymore. Been fucked over so many times, once more ain't gonna make a difference.

It sucks that summer is pretty much done. I still have so much left to do
and people I want to spend more time with. I wish certain things would have happened earlier in the summer as opposed to now.
Fuuu.

I just realized I'd never meet / re-meet any cute boys if I didn't drink because I'm too shy sober.
Luv ya booze.

I really, really dislike how awkward I am with guys.
I need to stop.

I have nothing to blog about.
I spent farrrr too much money on lingerie the other day which probably wasn't necessary but
hey
;)
My life is just me going to work work work.
I have the weekend off this week which is amazing and I have sick plans too.
Parties and weddings, should be fun.

I haven't wrote a drunk blog in a long time.
So hi.
I don't want to work tomorrow.
I love Matt, Katie, Chantel, Amanda...etc.

OH wait I have nothing left to say. Bye.

boy was wrong
was wrong in every cast
was always told that make up
would make things last
boy would feel
would feel like strange
boneless
this town is all in hell
you know
you would always run
from here

I don't know how to express what I'm feeling in words but I'm going to try.

You can change yourself as many times as you want but sometimes it feels like it's never enough. The person you want to notice you never will and there's nothing you can do about it. There's always someone with something more than you and you can't figure out what you are doing wrong or how to change it.

And what if you just keep meeting people that don't give a fuck about you? What if those are the only type of people you ever meet? Like you don't ever have what they are looking for. I'm speaking boy wise of course.

I don't want to meet anymore boys, I'm going to try even less than I do now if that is even possible.

I try to act like it doesn't bother me but it does. It does so fucking much.

Hi.
I love life.
I love my friends, especially Matt.
Not tied down and I adore it.
I'm probably only really interested in one boy but not in a way that I'd let it consume me like it usually does.
I really don't even care if anything happens between us. Stress free, I fucking love not giving a shit about guys.