I havent posted in so long

Wow sorry about that. So my life has been busy. Still trying to find somewhere to live in Toronto. I want to live on Eglinton but I guess that is too much to ask. My boyfriend is moving back to thunder bay soon and I want to cry. SO anyways this weeks plans:
Tuesday: sit on my bum all day and do nothing
Wednesday: work
Thursday: work, my managers going away party
Friday: work, Paul's birthday party
Saturday: veld music festival at downsview park with my cute boyfriend
Sunday: same as Saturday
So This is basically what I've been up to :  

I've lost 5 pounds and am currently sitting at a comfortable 120 pounds. I'm in love with a boy. I work 40 hours a week and I'm starting to get a new life routine together. Less drinking which means easier weight loss, no more hangovers and no more regretful decisions. I'm prioritizing my life in a way where work is going to come first. I feel slightly more grown up and I'm excited for this new chapter to unfold in my life. 20 something and real life is just beginning, apparently.

This week taught me to re consider who my friends are and not to trust people too easily.

Not going out to everything your friends do is part of growing up and being independent and I shouldn't feel upset because people I love are having a good time without me.

In other news I bought the 2 dresses I am wearing for the wedding on the 14th of July

This is the one I am wearing to the church

 

and heres the one I am wearing to the reception

 

if something good doesn't happen soon I'm going to start to burn every bridge I have. See yah.

life is still "bleh" I work 30 hours a week and I'm sitting here alone eating tuna and looking for a coffee bean grinder. Yesterday I took my boyfriend up the CN tower FOR FREE cause I work there.  

 and this is all I have to say to everyone in my life on this bleak monday night 

So today was a really fucking shit day. First off I'm not feeling well because my throat hurts and my nose constantly runs. It is hard for me to talk and talking at work ALL THE TIME doesn't help. I didn't get much sleep because I decided to visit my boyfriend last night which means I had to get up early to head back to toronto so he could go to work today. ANYWAYS my 2 ex roommates who are also my close friends have been talking about going to african lion safari together for 2 years. So today they both went because someone invited them to and they never even invited me because I told one of my friends I was working today. NOT EVEN A FUCKING INVITE TO SEE IF I COULD GET MY SHIFT COVERED OR ANYTHING. Then I get to see all their little photos of their adventure posted on facebook and twitter like rub it in more thhhhaaaanks. Oh and everyone gets to go out tonight and have fun while I get to work till 11 and battle crowds of drunk people just to get to the subway. haha MUST BE NICE to be able to drink with your friends on weekends MUST BE FUCKING NICE. I guess I'm just feeling a whole lot of left out cause I have a job that demands I work a lot of hours. The cherry on top of the shit cake that today was, was the fact that they don't serve soup anymore in the cafeteria at work they only serve shit junk food which is super cool cause I don't eat any of that stuff. So i hope everyone has a grad fucking ol time getting wasted tonight and doing stupid shit I'm just going to sit here in my old lady pjs and go to bed sober night fuck faces :)

I Just

want to be alone. I want to have my own apartment, go to work and see my boyfriend and family. Everyone else is pissing me off. You're all full of shit and secrets and I hate the feeling of being forgotten. I don't feel cared about I don't know I just want to sit here and cry in this fucking apartment that isn't mine.