Build it up

tear it down

there is nothing left to say



Should we go?

should we wait?

no one wants to waste away



Let me in

get me out

either way it has to be



We can't stay

to fade away

the end is not a means for me



Is it over

maybe where already there?

Take it over

maybe were already dead?



I won't look inside no more

I wont wait for comfort signs

I wont listen for the call

I know the answer is too clear



Honest fears

honest doubts

but nothing ever changes



Its nice to talk

nice to smile

that will be the end of us



Is it over

maybe where already there?

Take it over

maybe were already dead?



I won't look inside no more

I wont wait for comfort signs

I wont listen for the call

Tonight was more fucked up than a normal Friday night on residence should be.
Can I please have one fucking night when no drama happens? PLEASE!!!!????
People should have talked to me in a sober state when they had a problem to talk to me about instead of letting it build up until they decided to drink, then confronting me.
I don't like feeling intimidated or threatened by the people I live with, it just isn't fair, especially seeing that I have never done anything wrong to you.

To top off the whole night there was a fist fight between 2 guys in the s building. Cool fucking night. Skype and talking in Amanda's room was the only fun part of the night. Tomorrow will be 4 nights in a row I will be drinking because I clearly rule at life. I'm eating noodles and planning on watching videos of kittens for the next few hours because it makes me happy.

:(

I was going to apply to be a residence assistant for next year but that dream has quickly come and gone seeing as they would never accept me because I'm on academic probation from first semester.
Wow, can you say failure at life?
Ohh well I will get my average up this semester...that probably means that I should actually DO some homework.
AH school is such a joke :(

Plans for today:
Be dirty and stay in my room and watch the real world all day.
If anything is going on tonight I'll consider taking a shower
and if I get bored of the real world then I'll finish my residence assistant application that's due today.

Now that I have my priorities straight I can officially say that I rule at life.
Yay for using sarcasm in blogs.

Tonight was fun minus all the things that distracted us from reaching the bar.
I kissed my first girl tonight and had so much fun dancing at caps AND didn't cry about dumb boy stufffffff. Go me :)
Pat is pretty much passed out in my bed and I don't know how I'm going to maneuver myself around him so I can go to sleep.

I know you don't like it when I drink but you don't know me anymore. Sorry.

WOW I still feel drunk from last night and when I woke up my leg hurt and I was shivering but wasn't cold. WTF is wrong with me.I don't even remember getting dressed into my pajamas last night. I don't think partying 4 nights in a row is going to be happing this weekend, or ever. My body can't handle it. Plus I don't know whats wrong with my leg. It feels like I pulled a muscle.

I need to sleep because I feel like shit and I'm sick and tired of crying over the same person EVERY FUCKING TIME I DRINK. IT'S FUCKING PATHETIC AND RETARDED.

:'(

This is why I love my best friend.