It's weird knowing that the person you're with now wasn't always yours and they've done the same stuff with you as they've done with other people. They've fucked other people, laughed with other people, joked, cried and shared lasting memories. You just wish you were the only person they had ever done those things with and continue to be the only person. These thoughts make me want to vomit. The thought of you with someone else in the past makes me sick.

According to my blogger stats a lot of people from Russia have been reading my blog. So hi from me in Canada to you in Russia <3 If those stats are even true....

Today during my work meeting I won the monthly challenge of basically "who's the best employee" and won a pink ipod shuffle. I'm not sure if I'm going to keep it or sell it yet cause it's so cute and I won it and I'm proud cause I never win anything. I also won one of the 7 special awards and I got the excellent customer service award which will look good on my resume. Along with that I got some bath and shower jell and a bag of Halloween treats. I finally decided to take a job seriously and it paid off. YAY. If you were wondering this is what my work looked like today but i did my best to work hard even though there weren't many customers. I'm flying out to see my boyfriend on Friday night for thanksgiving and tomorrow I'm working another 10 hour shift.

So I'm done my exhausting 11 hour shift.
Tomorrow I have a normal shift then my work is having a thanksgiving dinner/meeting that I'm attending and I'm eating ALL THE FOOD.
My boyfriend isn't going to make it out to see me this weekend but I'm going to visit him for about a day and a half because if I don't I wont get to see him for the next 3 weeks and I can't do that cause I'm weak and I love him too much. Hahaha
Anyways we are having our own little thanksgiving since he doesn't get to have one otherwise.
It's gonna be damn cute.
Excited to eat 10000 calories tomorrow then burn it off.

I said I'd try to write a blog every day so here goes:
Tomorrow I'm working a double shift so 12 hours because living on your own and paying rent is tough and shit like that.
That's one thing I hate about living on my own for sure.
My boyfriend hasn't gotten back to me on whether he can come visit this weekend cause he needs his parents to pay for the plane ride which I set up at a discount.
So that is frustrating me and so is the fact that I can't see him whenever I want.
I wish I could find a new boyfriend that lives close to me but the problem is that boy wont be Kyle.
So suck for me.
I'm ignoring him right now cause he is being a loser + so am I and I'm mad that I have to work 2 double shifts this week to be able to afford where I live.

okokoko

sorry for never posting I promise I'll post a blog every night from now on.
so i stayed in this stupid house that is kinda nice too bad the landlord is a dickhole
ahh been to thunder bay 3 times since i last wrote to see my lovely boyfriend and I work every day.
All my friends from work are quitting which makes me sad so that's it I'll update more tomorrow as it is late and it's October now officially.
i hate the cold
bye.

update

i miss my boyfriend i get to see him tomorrow after no contact for 2 weeks and not seeing him for 3
and moving out of the place ive been living in for a week cause the landlord is a fucking creep, rude piece of shit so byeeee
moving back home and finding a 1 bedroom apartment where ill have room for allllllllllllll my stuff fuck everyone fuck roommates all i need is my family.
you all suck