Like all the boys before, like all the boys, boys, boys.

it
will
only
be
a
matter
of
time
goodnight

Does he know what I do and you'll pass this on, won't you ?

My hair is always so messy, I never brush it. I like the way it looks though.
I wish this song would stop getting stuck in my head but it's so fucking good.

I'm having second thoughts about you but I guess that's better than no thoughts at all, goodbye.

Dance cave trip was successful. Got in with my fake, didn't have to buy any drinks because I was already ridiculously drunk. Met a cute boy, made out with him all night long, found out he was 5 years older than me, cool. He was still amazingly cute sooo :)
Took the bus home with Kristyn, Sam, and Paul because everyone ditched us. Listened to some crazy guy sing foreign music on the bus and wanted to murder him and walked in the fog all the way back to residence. Promising night.

matt says:
so are you feeling okay?
helga * says:
yeah
i had a sign
it was crazy
i was leaving work and i put my i pod on shuffle
and i don't need a man by the pussy cat dolls was on
and i was like OH HELLS YEAH

i love my life

:(

So being a third wheel is now a standard part of my life. 2 of my good friends that I live with have boyfriends and here's me, Helga just sitting around wasting time on guys that never text her back. Cool. Worst mood ever. I feel like I'm not good enough for anyone. I'm sick of the way I look and act. Can I just be someone other than me for a little while, please?

let it out

I liked it better the way things were, when I was the only one.

Back to the same old, same old.